Saturday, May 05, 2007 ♥
Ello there.
I haven't been able to fully write a detailed entry ever since I start working. Seriously. I wanted to blog out all this feelings inside of me for so long, but I nv seem able to. I seem to have a lot of things to do, a lot of things to settle. I want to have someone to talk to you know? A sister whom seem so far away now. My sisters whom I lost contact a little. How I miss them so much. How I become the person I am now, I really dunno who I am anymore. I feel lost, I feel scared. I wanna find my way out of this mess, but I'm struggling. I seem like I dun need anyone for me, but the fact is I'm just a girl who need someone to talk to. Someone I can be real to.
I'm not trying to get emotional. I know the real world is tough. I really need to buck up and grow up. But, by losing myself to nothing, is really something I dun wish to see myself in the future. I need to find a purpose in life. A purpose which I lost dunno how many ages ago.
I miss my friends you know. I miss singing, movies, shopping, playing games, hanging out, looking pretty with them. I wish I can go back school.
It's not that I dun love my work. It's just that, I need to find a purpose in my life. I feel so alone, did I bring this up upon myself? I dunno who I can trust man. Who can really help me out when I'm in deep shit? People tell me they love me, do they really love me? Do they really love me for who I am, for wat I do?
I miss myself. I wish Wendy would come home...
calwen @ 3:41 AM