Thursday, April 12, 2007 ♥
Wah lao. I very pissed off with my freaking brother leh. Sometimes he really know how to climb over my head de lo. NB LA. That anime is not mine can. Is my friend de lo. My friend borrow me I haven't even fucking watch finish he nb bring go his work place there and watch. NOW I CANNOT FIND THAT ANIME AND I DUNNO WAT HAPPEN TO IT. My friend even asked me to take care of it somemore. Kao. Then these days coz my lappy de wireless kinda down so my brother no choice have to use it. And he's like using so much space for the games now that I'm kinda pissed that I allowed him to use my lappy lo. Very sian de la. Sigh
Work has been stressful and tiring. It's like a standard I have to live up to. I not sure if I'm giving myself more stress then needed. Worrying about being able to fit in, whether your staff is giving you support, whether you have enough time for this for that. Sigh. It's been quite a while since I actually really smiled at anyone. Except for some peeps in that place la. They made me feel at least, welcome back to Cathay, that kind of feeling. At least, they can crack jokes with me that make me feel really comfortable. I feel less like myself each day pass.
I miss myself. I miss my friends. I miss my freedom. But I guess life isn't fair. I need to become a working adult le.
Well. I had a bit of fun yesterday though. Went clubbing though I didn't stay until very late. Had a few photos taken, but I dun have them in my phone. All scattered everywhere. Haha. Went to bed like 4am in the morning, wake up 7am for work. I'm like totally, shag. It's like, check programme compo can fall asleep inside like that. Then tio scolding from Eve lo. I notice she like nv scold other staff like that. I wonder if it's coz I'm younger so need more scolding. Sigh. I know stuff like dun take her words to heart and stuff, but then, it's not nice to tio scold. Somemore she say she wanna slap me. I was rather shock. Was I that bad?
I saw Samantha yesterday. She say wanna talk to me until now nv talk lo. Sigh. Can see that me and her the wall getting stronger each day. I also dunno wat to do about it. I'm still waiting for her to talk to me. lol.
I'm so tired. Tml's viv firstday wor. I wonder if I should wait til 12am to message her happy birthday. We're meeting up tml.
I think I'm really that bad la. I dun think anyone knows that I'm that down either. I guess people can't tell ba.
I can't really find an aim in life le. After I graduate, like I said before. I'm lost. I dunno wat I should aim for in life. I really need to have a good chat with my sisters soon. I miss them horribly.
calwen @ 11:03 PM