Thursday, February 08, 2007 ♥
haha. Blogging is no good. Normally. I dun blog when my life is plain sailing. I only blog when I feel like there's no one I could turn to. Even though I'm chatting online, with friends, whoever, smiling, laughing, but I know deep down inside I'm not exactly happy.
A old best friend of mine msn me today. Told me that he's breaking up. Didn't tell me the reason, but I know it hurts a lot. Further more, his relationship is like 3 yrs already, and he decided to let her go just like that. Not that he dun love her anymore. Is that he love her too much to be selfish to hold on to her...
He told me to support his decision. I guess I would just cry with him. Coz I know how it felt letting someone go because it's better this way then to carry on. I guess time will heals.
Tonight is the second night knowing that he's no longer mine. It shouldn't be hurting so much. Why are my tears still flowing?
It's as though the breakup I had many years ago, the wound simply open so easily. The wound that took me yrs to heal.
I dun feel like going to sch. I dun feel like working. Its just one of the days where you wanna stay at home and feel sorry for urself. Wish things aren't real.
It's over easily. I should be prepared. But it's still like a bucket of cold water splash onto you. Reality. With everyone around me being couples, I wonder how I could survive Valentine's Day like this. But then again. I know I will have to.
calwen @ 3:16 AM