Wah. I really rotted in Sam's house today. Watch her do her project. Why rot at her house and not mine? Coz. Got company ma.

I talked to both Jess and Sam today. Realise that Jess actually grown up quite a bit. Looking at her and myself. Realise that I'm the one who'se lost now. haha. I dunno about my future. I used to handle my future well. Know wat I wanna do and stuff. But now, seems like I dunno wat I want anymore. Lost. Confused. Looking at her, knowing she found full time job, and stuff, make me wonder wat's gonna happen to me?

K la. I wanna play pc mahjong le. Seeya! Talk more next time round


Omg. I slept at 2am yesterday, and I woke up 4pm today. I'M SUCH A PIG.

Anyway. Going out soon. Going Sam's house to rot. Haha. At the same time. Go back coffee bean to search the bottle myself. humph. Kaoz, dun tell me someone took my bottle home lo. ROAR. T.T

My friend yesterday said my face very pale. This afternoon I woke up my mum also say my face look very pale. Probably tired ba. Haha. Though I slept so much, but nightmares and mental stress is enough to wear me out. I think I look more tired than I am in school.

I better go prepare. Seeya.


Damn sleepy. Didn't sleep last night. Went breakfast with Lex early in the morning until 9am, went home sleep a while. Woke up at 1pm and head to WestMall with Metta and Sam to catch Norbit. Pls dun waste ur money watching Norbit. It suck. The only funny part which I find is laughable is the part where the fat ass slide down the water dip and went right through the wall. Omg. I laugh like shyt in the cinema. Hahaha. But that's the only funny part leh. The whole movie was kinda boring and stupid. The Kate is a babe though. If only I have half her features. Haha.

Anyway, me, Sam and Metta rotted at pastamania for dinner, we rotted there for quite long. Chatted about a lot of noob shyts. About relationships and stuff.

And guess wat. I lost the water bottle that was suppose to be lama's christmas present. Haha. I cannot believe that I lost it at coffee bean. Someone throw it away. T.T Coz Sam went back to help me find. Cannot find le. The staff there say they didn't see any adidas water bottle there. Sad la. Wat's not mine, really wouldn't come back. Sigh.


Okie. My brother went back to work le. Now feeling a bit lonely at night. Lonely nights sucks. Hahaha.

You know wat. I seriously need to get a job soon. It's not about the money now. Money is one point. But with so much time at hand and doing nth, I'll just have nightmares even if I'm awake.

U know. I was nv like that. Roar. I used to spend nights ALONE and I DUN CARE. Since when I become so weak and pathetic.

You know. I recently had a friend who had heart disease. My best friend. It's really scary. I mean, he's my best friend. And suddenly his life is shorten so much. Can you imagine if it happens to you? Wat if it happens to me? Haha. He said. Tell the people out there how much you love them. Why do people always wait until it's too late then they say I love you?

Amazing how people can get over stuff so fast. People say the fastest way to to find someone else to like. So easy meh. lol.

Nah. I'm not desperate. WO SHI INDEPENDENT. Hahaha. I'm like that ever since I'm in secondary school. >.< How much I try I still couldn't change myself. Not many guys like indepandent girls.

I hope this kind of entries stop one day. I HOPE I STOP WRITING EMO ENTRIES. I REALLY HOPE TO GET MYSELF BACK. I MISS WENDY HAU.


lol. I cannot believe myself. Like that I also can have nightmare.

Cannot believe myself. Haha. Nightmare until I cannot go back to sleep. Power leh.

Wat I dreamt of? I dreamt that he got someone new. Haha. I dream like that previous nightmare I have. He message the wrong person. He message his girl but dunno why message me instead.

I'm just speechless.

Another sleepless night.













Hate him. Miss him. Loved him.












Christmas season.












Clocking with gm.












When I turn 120. lol. lots of mega. thanks guys











Me and Samantha in game. lol.












First time fight blue mushmum. funny sia.












The day when we become 1.












Memorable. Thank you.










My brother turn piggy. LOL.















lvl 55 neh. MY NOOB PERIOD. lol.


lol. I just mega that I quit maple.

Lots of mixed feelings. Lots of memories.

From the first few occasions when I was still depending on my brother when I was lvl 35. Get to know viv, lex all.

Then I play other games awhile, before coming back with my poly friends. Chiong lvl. Seperated from viv and lex. Met Desmond. met meiping. met mei.

Slowly advance to mg. where i meet lama. lol. much treasured memories with him. i still smile when i remember he log in just to ask me "did you wear ur engagement ring?" lol.

reunioned with lex and viv. poly friends nv play le. my brother tio ban come back. we chiong lvl. created new guild. with so many friends joined in. everyone is important to me. sam, jason. lex, viv. my brother. my bl. mira. fen. sil. jerry, ken. lamb. so many people.

I guess giving up my account is not easy as some people who say quit means quit. got a lot of feelings there. a lot of friends. a lot of memories.

but then. I guess I'm not important after all. maybe i was nv important.


I'm dying. Hahaha.

Yesterday clubbing was fun la. One of the most fun on I had recently. I did dance with a few guys. But then, KJ and Sam dunno dumb or wat. Ask them come rescue me like cmi like that. zzz. But then, I'm happy with the music, and I actually can dance in peace. Wah, even though I wear flat, I can dance until my legs are aching leh. It's been a while since I enjoy myself like that. Me, Sam and KJ down one jug of vodlka lime, not much of a kick, but able to high for a while. Kao eh, Singaporean guys are mostly desperate. Haha. I prefer guys who dance with me without touching pls. Yesterday the three of us were surrounded by guys the entire night leh. zzz. But nvtheless, it's fun. =D I didn't drink much. >.< I wanted to. But then, no one to talk me home, so, better not ba. Sigh. Oh ya. We went with KJ's friends, but not close with them, so basically we three dance among ourselves while they hevoc. =X

Before clubbing I went Sam house a while. We talked. When going home we talked as well. Wat we talked made me can't sleep last night. I rolled in bed until 8.30am then managed to fall asleep de. Sigh. Somehow talking to her make my hopes up. But it's not suppose to be up. It's suppose to die down very long ago.

Sigh. So basically I only slept like 1 and a half hours before I drag myself up to go town. I look horrible la. I just anyhow wear one top and a pair of jeans and I'm out of the house. Sigh. But I only went for the kbox session, after taht I went straight home. Slept on the MRT.

Someone help me get out of this mess?














Sam and me. Wearing off shoulders that day. But long sleeve leh, guys have difficulty touching my skin. =X














I look evil ROAR. Eh. KJ look even more evil. LOL.














Sam is in love with me. Hahaha. She mad lai de, but nevertheless I love her. hahaha. Kena force take picture with her. ROAR.














K, finale leh. LOL. MY HAIR IS MESSY. Sob. Result after dancing nonstop for 4 hours. zzz. Rest awhile go back still have to dance. ROAR. K, my eye bag cmi as well. T.T

Miss ya.


I dun understand guys. Seriously. So hard to answer? IF U WANNA TALK TO ME. JUS TALK TO ME. NB. Do I look like a tiger to u? Roar.

It's just a question. You humji right. Dun regret if you dun do anything. I will just leave from you life and nv come back. If I ever do. Dun regret.


Kinda tired though I sleep much last night.

Had a dream. Haha. I dreamt that I met up with my sisters and all. And guess wat. They know about HIM. I was rather shock coz I didn't tell my sisters anything about HIM. And then he told me that HE is asking for their handphone numbers and stuff. Was kinda shock. lol. Can say it's a nightmare. Coz I remember feeling empty and sad all of a sudden. Haha. Oh well.

Anyway, today suck. Suppose to pei my brother down to town, but I drag time and in the end he went out in anger himself. =X

Why I got this feeling that Jason is starting to hate me?

Sigh. Anyway. Wasn't in the right mood today. Wanted to talk but like watever i say will tio suan. Ya.

Just wanted to find someone whom I can talk to.


Wo ai ni ni shi wo de ro mi ro, wo yuan yi bian cheng ni the zhu ying tai. Xin fu the mei yi tian. Lang man de mei yi ye. Mei li the ai qing zhu fu ze wei lai.~

Omg omg. Haha. Okie la, I start from yesterday. I went for a movie at night with Pipi, Lex, my brother, Daniel, Sam, Jason at cwp. Went to watch Ghost Rider. Actually wanna watch Norbit. But well, yesterday was super crowded. Ghost Rider 10pm also running out fast, we have to settle for 1st row seats leh. Somemore Ken and his friends came down also. Then we watch together lo. Ken a bit baichi la, dunno why keep wanting to meet me. zzz. Anyway, he got this ah beng feel surrounding him. opps. haha. We parted after the movie, lex, sam, and daniel ton my house for mahjong. I won 4 bucks overall. Not bad. Haha. They ton until like 12pm the next day. I was super shag entertaining them. But they are fun la.

Anyway, hope Sam feeling better these days.

Oh ya. I after they head home, I slept for 4 freaking hours before I woke up to bai nian at KJ's house. I LOST BIG MoNEY AT HER HOUSE. I was freaking winning money until her brother came in and I LOST BIG MONEY LO. I lost my 30 bucks I won at lex house that day. Super duper sad. T.T CRY. Aiya. But nvm la. Haha. Had fun, ate dinner at her house. Rotted.

After KJ's house we head town for ktv session. Daniel's birthday btw. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH COW!! 22 years old le. Pls go find girlfriend. Hahaha.

Hmmm, we had a surprise for cow. Actually viv say she not coming de. But she informed me that she's coming down, asked me not to tell moo. And ya, she came ith a cake and we had fun. Today's Party World very fun la. I sang my blog's song, HOOOO~~. And a lot more. "Na Me Ai Ta" and "Jui Jing" by Li Sheng Jie is nice. My favourite. Oh ya. I sang "Ai Yao Ze Me Shou Chu Kou." LOL. Classic leh. But NICE TO SING CAN. Viv keep throwing oranges at Sam when she sing wrong note. Very funny. Oh yes, first tiem went ktv with Desmond. He can sing leh. ^^ Hmmm, today's session damn fun la. Haha. I had beer again. ROAR. Sucks la. But I still drink anyway. Haha

Well. I'm going clubbing tomorrow. WOOOOOOOOO. Hahaha. I am mad liao. I'm having fun. I wish I could share it with someone though. =) Anyone wanna join me MOS tml? Pls sms me. I WELCOME ALL LADIES AND GENTLEMAN TO DANCE WITH ME. Hahahahaa.

Hmmmm. Happy Chinese New Year Guys. Muacks. <3


lol. Huat ar Huat ar. HAPPY PIG YR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE. MUACKS to ALL!

Weeee. I just came home from lex house. He super cute sia. We going his house but he didn't prepare went to bed instead. LOL. And he sleep super cute also. bth. Hmmm. Anyway, we play blackjack and unexpectedly I won 30 bucks home. I wasn't willing to play money de, but since everyone on then I buay on like very wat. So I play lo, and HUAT ar!! Keep winning money. Hahaha.

Hmmm, no plan currently. Tml probably go relative house and slack. Then come home got new fridge coming, our fridge cmi liao. Freezer the ice put 4 hours still water that kind. lol. So ya, tml will be staying at home until fridge come, not sure wat I wanna go after that. Probably play mahjong with my family, or go out watch movie with some people.

Wah lao. DATE ME OUT LEH. Sai la you guys. ROAR.

Hmmm, anyway, I MISS YOU I MISS YOU AND I MISS ONLY YOU! Muacks. hahaha. Return soon. Hugs. Oh yes, <3>


Hahaha. I'm going out now. LOL. Countdown at Lex house ar. HUAT AR. Anything PLS SMS ME. I MISS YOU ALL. SOB.


Couldn't sleep again. Another sleepless night. Sigh


Hmmm. Went for some last min shopping today. Haha. 2 tops, a pair of shorts, and a pair of shoes. Lalala.


Hey guys. Haha. Well, can't say I totally rotted at home on Vday. I decided to go catch a movie with Sam, Lex, Daniel, and Jason. We caught "Right by Law," a certain Jack Neo movie, kinda lame, feel that the switch body event is like so old school. But I must say Fann Wong acted really well in that movie. Haha. 5 stars for her though I dun really like her that much. Anyway, LEX IS LATE. Movie start at 7pm. He WOKE UP at 7PM! ROAR!!! I have to go out of the cinema to fetch him halfway through the movie. Si lex.




lol. Not funny. Actually I expected this kind of shit to happen. But then, I didn't wanna care to much about shyt like this liao. Today seriously a lot of stuff happen sia. I guess it's eve of Vday. Everyone I know is emo about something. Those who aren't emo, weren't online. lol.

I dun hate vday. I used to enjoy vday every single yr in school, not with someone special, but with all my good friends out there. Haha. This yr, I not sure why I wanna stay at home and play my ps. Got people date me out. I still not sure if I should go with it or should I stay at home and rot. Afterall, going out means seeing all the bears, flowers and stuff. Haha.

I only recieve my 12 fav blue roses once in my entire life. Though it's withered already, I still appreciate the fact that my ex gave me blue roses. First in my entire life. After him there are best friends and sisters who gave me blue roses la. But I guess I'm hoping for a special guy to send me another bunch of roses. rofl. It'll nv happen this Vday of coz.

Anyway, a few asked me go kbox, another few ask me go their house play cards and mahjong, I'm seriously not sure whether I should stay at home and feel sorry for myself or not.

Frankly speaking, I'm feeling all better already. I can smile, I can laugh. Haha. But something is really missing and I seriously dunno wat. Need some self exploration.

Hey friends out there. I love you guys k? Always here for u. <3

To Metta, Angeline, KJ, Jess and Sam. Okie. It's been a while since I last blog you guys names but, do ask me out for dinner or watsoever. Know you guys are busy. But I miss you all k?

Amanda, YiChun, SuPing, graduating or graduated, pls contact me back again.

ANYONE GOT JOB LOBANG PLS TELL ME. DESPERATE.

Hahaha. To Viv, Pipi, Daniel, Lex, Sam, Ja, Pam, Vamp, Jerry, Ken, Elaine, and those who regard me as a friend in maple, love you guys to.

To Robin and YaoWei. GOING CLUB MUST TELL ME.

Lol. HAPPY VDAY GUYS. LOVE YOU ALL.





LOL. I went out today. Hmmm. Even though I'm horribly broke. But staying at home alone thinking makes everything worse.

So, I head town, went to visit some friends, and went K box with the people I love.

Nothing much, sang pretty much songs today. Even though my throat isn't that good. I still try la. Like I say. Better then being at home thinking.

I didn't cry today. I guess that's an improvement.

Oh ya, I thinking of stopping maple too. Just get my equipments and stuff, and I'm out of there. Gotta go back work too. Wouldn't have the time. Suddenly feel like wanna chiong work. Keep myself busy. Probably I wouldn't think so much.

If Sam didn't remind me, I would have forgotten that Valentine's Day is around the corner. I nv let it affected me much. But dunno why this yr a bit... wrong. Haha.

I miss him much. But I'll get over it. I hope I can faster get over it. I hate myself now. I wanna be normal again. Wish every bit of this not true. Wish I'll wake up tomorrow and realise it's just a nightmare and see his sms in the morning. Haha. Ya. I WISH. rofl.

I'll work soon. I promise. Earn money, can pay my stuff, can work towards my dream. Yes.


haha. Blogging is no good. Normally. I dun blog when my life is plain sailing. I only blog when I feel like there's no one I could turn to. Even though I'm chatting online, with friends, whoever, smiling, laughing, but I know deep down inside I'm not exactly happy.

A old best friend of mine msn me today. Told me that he's breaking up. Didn't tell me the reason, but I know it hurts a lot. Further more, his relationship is like 3 yrs already, and he decided to let her go just like that. Not that he dun love her anymore. Is that he love her too much to be selfish to hold on to her...

He told me to support his decision. I guess I would just cry with him. Coz I know how it felt letting someone go because it's better this way then to carry on. I guess time will heals.

Tonight is the second night knowing that he's no longer mine. It shouldn't be hurting so much. Why are my tears still flowing?

It's as though the breakup I had many years ago, the wound simply open so easily. The wound that took me yrs to heal.

I dun feel like going to sch. I dun feel like working. Its just one of the days where you wanna stay at home and feel sorry for urself. Wish things aren't real.

It's over easily. I should be prepared. But it's still like a bucket of cold water splash onto you. Reality. With everyone around me being couples, I wonder how I could survive Valentine's Day like this. But then again. I know I will have to.


Many things have happened these few days. So many ups and downs. Been to places and experience different stuff.

I'm not sure if parting is a good thing. But I guess life still goes on without each other. No matter how much it hurts, no matter how much I cry, I know it when it's impossible to be together. My heartaches, when I decided to make that decision. But I know that it's time. To face reality. That we both live in different worlds. I'm still crying each time I think about you, but time will heal I guess.

I'm graduating soon. It's almost seems like starting a new life. Working, wonder if there'll be time for my friends. I'm enjoying my freedom right now. But I know someday it'll end. I guess I wish it'll never end.

How I wish life could have been simple. How I wish I nv had fallen in love in the first place.

I'm not sure wat I wanna do now. Seems a bit lost. I dun feel like mapling anymore. I dun feel like going sch anymore. I just wanna rot somewhere and wait for death to take over.

Oh ya, did I mention I cut my hair? Haha.

<3 xAffinityx

Name's Wendy (aka wencas)
Birthday falls on the 3rd April
I'm an Aries. Exact. Same. Personality.
Attached happily to Calvin Shing Jia Yong.
Well, that's all you need to know, right?



craves :
Ipod Nano ?
A red Nintendo DS Lite sweeetttt ;)
A Flat Screen TV
TV Cable
Constant Traveling with my one and only ^^
More shoes!
Drama Shows
Comics
ODM Watch got a puma one =D
A perfect wallet braun buffel wakakaka
Brazailian wax ouch
W890i Sony Ericsson
More clothes ^^










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