Monday, January 29, 2007 ♥
Omg. I sometimes dunno wat to say my mum. She stupidly bring my blanket to laundry, and now, everynight I no blanket to cover myself to sleep le. And I fell sick la. Neh neh. No replacement blanket, she gave me a towel to cover myself. Neh neh.
Sigh. These days quite a lot of things cock up. I just can't wait for my 2x exp card to be over and I'm more free le. T.T
Til then, take care.
calwen @ 10:48 AM
Sunday, January 21, 2007 ♥
Hiya. lol. Sorry for the lack of updates. Just plain lazy to blog these days. Not sure why also. Probably because of the weather.
Hmmm, I saved 50 bucks so far. Really need to pay my handphone bill soon. But I promised my god brother to return him 50 bucks by the end of this month. Wat do you guys think? Should I return my god brother money or pay my bill? My bill if dun pay end of this month cancel le. Got warning liao. Hai.
Hmmm, yesterday was a mini celebration at Samantha's house. I didn't really do much, let jess curl my hair and get ready for clubbing at night. I got show hints that I'm rather broke, didn't really wanna club. But then, it's sam's birthday, and she really wanna go clubbing lo. Then I just went, which means I still owe phyllis money. sian leh.
A few songs rocks yesterday. It was only good at the end of the clubbing session. neh neh. And when the good songs come out the dance floor so crowded. zzz.
A few photos for u guys to enjoy.
Si sam. LOOK AT MY MAKEUP! I'm ruin! T.T
Birthday girl. Muacks. 21st birthday liao Sam. Love you lots.
Ah Jess and me. =D
calwen @ 8:16 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007 ♥
Okie. I'm blogging in school. Couldn't go home yet. Need to grap an assignment at mac lab. Right now someone is using the computer. So I have to wait for class to be over before I could take the file. T.T So bored. Can go home rush my other assignments de leh. zzzz.
Anyway, I'm so dead la. I skipped dunno how many times for Image class le. I very scared I tio debared over a stupid Image module. So dumb right. Sigh.
But then again. i got no motivation of graduating, it's like, gotta work after that. Means FULL TIME outside in working life. Dun wanna lose my freedom le. Very sad de leh.
Sigh. Sat had pipi, lex, and ja staying over for mahjong and daidee. Kinda funny. I fell asleep halfway while they are daideeing. Cannot make it la. 9.15 then sleep sia. They went home I directly coma on my bed. Didn't even have the energy to bath. zzz.
A lot of stuff happened recently. Dumb stuff really. Really dumb. Sigh. I think I shall not describe the story just in case it gets boring. But then again. Since when my blog is interesting de. lol. XD
I want to go home. T.T
calwen @ 3:10 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007 ♥
Random Quotes taken from http://xiaostar.com/
Piece of advice. Read them while listening to "First Love" by Ukita Hikaru
"Why do we love the ones that hurt us and hurt the ones that love us?"
"A man realised he wanted his love back. Not wanting to get hurt, the girl say "no." The man cried to God and asked, "If it's meant to be why did I lose her?" God says, "My child, you didn't lose her, you let her go..."
"A friend is someone who accepts your past, supports ur present, and encourage your future."
"It is not who you know the longest, it is who had never left you."
"it takes stengths to hide your pain. It takes courage to show them. It takes strength to survive, it takes courage to live."
"When the pain of holding on is greater then the pain of letting go, it's time to let it go."
"Everytime you say you love me, remember it's a sin to lie."
"You love the first person who touched your heart, and you never love anyone the same way again."
"Jealousy is a sign of true love."
"Are you missing wat you've never had?"
"Dun run when I push you away, coz it's when I needed you the most."
"If you're patient in one moment of anger, you'll escape a hundred days of sorrow."
"Follow your heart, you'll lose your mind. Follow you mind, you'll break your heart."
""I miss you when something good happens, coz you're the one I really wanna share it with. I miss you when something's troubling me, coz you're the one who understands me most."
"I will wait for you.. and will wait for no one but you"
"I'm sitting here, crying, feeling worse than ever, not because you hurt me, but because I hurt you"
"We may be done with the past, but that doesn't mean the past is done with us"
"Once my lover, now my friend, wat a cruel thing to pretend."
"In a relationship, there's always a problem, and deep inside it, there's always a solution"
"Love isn't gone just because you want to let go."
calwen @ 12:17 AM
Sunday, January 07, 2007 ♥
Sianz. Just died in maple bo mood train liao. Sigh.
Anyway, news is that I pass my driving and I can drive on the road le. ^^ People to thank, my dearest ShanYun, who intro the driving instructor to me. Tony himself, and the examiner I had that day. And those who wished me luck and so on. I'm really very lucky that day. ^^
In fact, hell lot of luck I had that day. I made tons of mistakes, yet, I'm still able to pass. Nope, I didn't wear a skirt that day, neither did I wear anything low cut. lol. I think the fact that I look confident seriously helped a lot. And I didn't mount kerb like Robin did. =X So I didn't fail. Wahaha. So happy that day. Daniel sort of mini celebrated with me, Jason owe me Swenson, Pipi owe me something to eat, and I'm free from this burden on my shoulders. However, i still have a debt to pay. owe Daniel 250 bucks and 50 bucks from my God Brother. My stupid driving cost 180 that day and making the license itself need 50 bucks. My bank account is totally dry le. Feel rather sorry for myself, but then, it's a dream from young to get my driving liscense, and I'm very happy la. My 2006 resolution actually made it, though a bit too late.
Talking about new year resolutions, I not sure if I've made them yet, but no harm mentioning it now. Probably to get graduated and get a job that I enjoy doing. Soon. My resolution is to at least travel once with friends. lol. Not so hard, except the fact that I dun have the money la. lols. Any kind soul willing to pay for my travel expenses? rofl.
I'm feeling a bit stablise in my projects coz most of them are already done or on the verge of completion soon.
There's so much in life to achieve. Yet I'm only 20. Okie. Fine. I'm getting old, but time so pass very fast. It'll be 2010 before you know it. Wat about you? Seriously. Do you have a goal you wanna achieve? Life without goals is rather meaningless. Lol. I guess I wouldn't marry someone who doesn't really have a life long goal. Makes me feel insecure. Wat will my future be with a guy without goals? Haha.
Speaking of marriage, lols, I guess I've grown up quite a bit. I used to be very naive, following only my heart, nv my brain. My close friends know me too well. Haha. But I guess, now, I know that love isn't everything. I used to think, love can conquer all, but, it isn't always the case. I guess I've grown quite a bit since 2006. Nevertheless, it'll be nice if someone who know how to control the wild side of me and take care of me well comes along.
Looking at my friends love life now, how sweet it can become, knowing very well, I can taste that kind of sweetness again. I guess I've been through a lot of pain. But who knows, someone could let me taste the sweetness again. I guess the only thing to do now is look positive into the future. =D Never stop believing. =)
Wat is love anyway? lol. I can go on and on debating on this topic man.
Oh no. Emoing again. Wahahaha. No worries man, Wendy is still strong. =X lalalala
calwen @ 11:04 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007 ♥
lol. I know I blog a lot of times today. Just that I have many thoughts on my mind that I wish to share but no one's around to listen.
Dun ask me to zak these days to all my maple friends. 1st, I've already made it clear that I have 0 ramen in my inventory. Dun make me sad futher by reminding me that I bo ramen left. 2nd. I wanna hit 120 before I zak again. I owe people 10m and i'm really broke. I'm sorry kor and jie. I promised but I will do it after I have the money and ramen. I promise means I will de. Even if I get helm, I will help people get also de. Just wait ba.
k. end of my random speech. I love my brother. I love Yaowei and Robin. I love Metta. I love Viv and Lex. I love Desmond. I love Jess. Just naming some random people to love. =D
calwen @ 11:51 PM
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WO HEN PA. MING TIAN LEH. WO DE TP MING TIAN. WO ZHEN DE HEN PA.
How! How!!!! I think tonight I cannot sleep lor!! Wat if I fail!? Sob. I think I fail I comfirm very sad de. 100% chop. Pls, pray everyone. Tml no traffic. No nothing. Sigh.
I tonight comfirm cannot sleep liao. Cry!
calwen @ 10:18 PM
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K. I'm feeling bored already. I just presented one of my project. Frankly speaking, lols, I hope to get A. Wahahaa.
Room so cold, forgot to bring jacket again.
I'll be meeting Metta today. To take my project back. Sigh. Tonight need to start scanning stuff. T.T
K la. I go play chess liao. Friend jio. seeya.
calwen @ 1:33 PM
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There's like so much to do. So many stuff to think of.
My driving these days like cannot make it. I cannot imagine if I fail la. If I fail i can just forget about facing anyone else. Sigh. Wat's wrong with me these days.
Updated Schedule on Projects
Portfolio : Demo Reel
Around 10 more pieces of work
Design and Art History : Research on Coca Cola. (More depth in research)
Sculpturing : Finish it up by dunno which deadline.
Audio and Visual Effects : Final Project Assignment. (Sigh)
Not sure if there's more projects piling up. Plus I have Fusion Show to think of. Where am I gonna get the money man. Sigh
Missing that someone. Gotta be stronger.
You know. Even if the projects are over. I'll still not enjoy life. Coz it means I've graduated. Which means I'll be at a lost again. Omg. Someone rewind my life.
calwen @ 12:10 AM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007 ♥
omg. Not only the fact that I couldn't sleep. The fact that when I was about to sleep I realised I have another assignment that I didn't know of appeared right in front of me. Thanks Ker. T.T Now I cannot sleep. And tml I have circit driving. I hope I dun piss my instructor off tomorrow. Sigh. Rushing my project now. Tomorrow date line le. Sigh.
calwen @ 5:39 AM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 ♥
Old song. But then. Forever one of my favourites. To all the girls who had their heart broken. Cheers.
歌曲：倒带
歌手：蔡依林
我受够了等待,你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及
才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带
你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外
却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害
我是真的很难释怀
终於看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭著求我留下来
终於看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开
你总是要我乖
慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎黱交代
你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白
看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带
只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待
被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块
要怎黱拼凑跟重来
终於看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭著求我留下来
终於看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开
calwen @ 5:25 PM
Monday, January 01, 2007 ♥
Happy New Yr guys. To my love ones and family and whosoever out there.
Haha. Actually feeling rather emotional everytime a year end. Been through quite a bit huh. 2006. Been through a relationship. Been through attachment. Been through quitting my job and relaxing my life right now. Falling in love again. Making tons of new friends. Rushing through projects and stuff like that. Drifting a bit away from my friends. All the tears, the laughter we shared. Just wanna say a huge thank you to you peeps in my life. Without you guys, there wouldn't be me I guess.
I'm turning 20 this yr. It's like, so scary. Haha. Graduation is near, I can smell it coming. And I can smell my unpredictable future coming. Wat I'm gonna do man. So lost. Kinda scary if you think about it.
I used to be so sure of my future. But now, I just realise I'm just nothing. Haha.
Anyway, a huge thank you to my family. Been through a lot of shit together but nevertheless, blood is still thicker then water. Appreciate that I still have a home to come home to and a bed to sleep every night.
A huge thank you to my sisters, namely Amanda, SuPing, YiChun. I know and I apologise for not spending enough time with you all. I miss you guys and I hope you guys know that. Hugs. Best wishes for the upcoming year ya?
A shout out to my Cathay friends. We've been through a lot too, though I'm like, torn away from that place, I'm still missing every single moment with you guys. Namely, Samantha, Jess, Metta, Angeline and KJ. Everyone's been busy lately. Just want you guys to know that somehow you guys are still part of my life. We can still hang out whenever you guys have the chance.
A shout out to my in game friends. Namely, Viv, Lex, Daniel, Pipi, Desmond, Jarick, and Gil. I had much fun with you guys, being able to play bball, mahjong, ktv, movies together like a normal bunch friends outside. I appreciate this bond we share, and I'm glad all these bring something outside of the game itself. Cheers.
I had fun on New Yr's Eve. A huge thank you to Daniel. Wasn't feeling good earlier in the afternoon. But met up with Daniel and we rotted at Jurong point. After that we went bowling a while with my brother and his friend. Then Dan drove my brother home, and he actually drove me to watch fireworks. I was very touched la. Coz he wanted to surprise me de. Wasn't feeling very good coz, every yr I always get to go out on Christmas eve and New Year's eve. This yr seems a bit, empty. Rather sad ar. Coz my outside friends seems to have their own programmes and stuff. I dun wanna spend my countdown at home. I wanna go out and see crowds. We managed to catch a glimsp of the fireworks. Haha. Coz trees are blocking the road side, but I was really happy. I didn't had much friends around me, only Daniel. But I guess, watching the fireworks really left me speechless. I really tot I'm gonna stay at home to countdown. But I didn't I get to watch fireworks. =D
Okie. My phone isn't a very good camera phone. BUT! I still managed to capture a new nice fireworks. =D Stupid tree blocking la. zzz. No choice.
Alright. Had mahjong through the night and I lost like 1.1m in game mesos la. Damn jialat liao la.
And oh, my 1 January 2007 didn't actually went through very smoothly. My driving practical was rather jialat today. I almost got into an accident. My instructor was pretty pissed off also. Rather sad la. Sigh. Then I went home to zak, I tot I can make it de, but who knows, b3 70% I didn't had any ramen left. Very sad. And I died of coz. 1k ramen gone. And I tot I could get helm de. Sigh. All didn't start well. I hope things will go better as times goes by.
Me here wishing you guys a bright and cheery yr ahead. (hopefully it applies to me as well. T.T)
calwen @ 7:16 PM