Wednesday, December 20, 2006 ♥
It's been raining whole day. And I'm shivering in my room wishing that spring would just appear tomorrow. Start a brand new year, a brand new start.
Did I mention I'm running a fever? Slight one though. Probably coz I was drench several times this week liao. It's like I'm feeling so cold, yet my head is hot. Dun think I wanna tell my parents. Later they nag at me again.
Couldn't sleep, so decided to switch on my computer again to blog. My heart is feeling heavy. Feel like I wanna cry yet I have no one to turn to. Haha. A moment of weakness.
lol. But then again, I always cried alone, didn't I? *smiles*
Dun you sometimes wish that you are being knocked down by a car, yet still survives but forgotten everything?
Or maybe you wish to get drunk and just cry everything out with someone beside you?
Something hurts me so much inside that I just cannot figure out wat it is. Maybe I shouldn't have started. Maybe I made the mistake again. I dunno wat I'm waiting for. I'm probably just running away again. Like I've always do.
If you're out there to hurt me. Pls dun. Just leave me alone. Go away.
Sometimes, caring too much is pointless coz you'll end up hurting urself even more. I had this experience so many times. Yet, I'm still doing it. Haha. I think I'm really stupid la. I wouldn't learn my lesson one.
Serious. Maybe it's time for me to leave.
calwen @ 2:04 AM