Thursday, December 21, 2006 ♥
I very sian, coming back to a family whose parents doesn't approved of wat my dreams and my actions are. I dun like it. They are pushing me too far, controlling me and handling me until I couldn't breathe. I couldn't wait to hit 21 fast. I just wanna move out and chill outside. My heart can take it no more. About their cristism and glares each night. About the fact that they dun even trust their own daughter.
I'm the kind of person when u force me to do something, I wouldn't wanna do it. The more you push me, the more I wouldn't wanna do it. If I ever gave it, I would say it's a huge sacrifice to me. I treasure my diginty. Not coz I'm proud or watever shit. Coz I think I deserve respect from everyone. Like how I respected them.
I couldn't breathe. I just wanna be free. I'm 19. But I'm being controlled like I'm 15 or 16. Why. It's not like I haven't worked before in my entire life. I know wat's reality of the world. I know wat's right and wat's wrong. Why can't they understand?
calwen @ 2:14 PM