Haha. Happy belated Merry Christmas to all folks out there. ^^

Too bad I'm rather sick this christmas. hadn't been sleeping well and stuff like that. And Been going out and slacking a bit as well. It took me a long time to decide to start my project today. And I should la. I left another week before school reopens. Sian.

I had my own fun this Christmas. I did wat I always wanted to do, be Santa! Haha. I was actually hoping Daniel had his car, but he didn't so we had to travel by train. Super sad. T.T I originally didn't plan on buying anything for anyone de. I'm horribly broke. But Christmas I dun buy anything for anyone I feel like a bit funny. I gave out presents every yr leh, then this yr I nv give I feel very bad. >.<

So the day before Christmas, I decided to do last min shopping with Pipi. I had fun with her, she walked damn fast. One min she's here, another min she's like 2 metres away from me liao. And I just stop and look at something on display leh. Next min she's out of sight le. zzzz. But I had fun shopping with her. She shop very budget one. LOL. She see one wallet, 39 bucks, turn to me, asked, wanna buy for Ah gil? Before I could reply, her eyes spotted another wallet on 20% discount and say, let's buy that one instead. Super budget la, but it's okie for me, coz I'm pretty broke. Haha. Jarick's present the hardest to buy. Actually, in the first place, we didn't wanna buy for him coz he comfirm too busy to meet up, but I say just buy lo, buy for everyone nv buy for him weird de. Haha.

Pipi had to rush off for dinner, then I didn't have plans for the night. Decided to call ah cow to be my rudolph. XD I decided there and then on that spot at marina sq that I wanna become Santa today. Sounds exciting le. I decided to deliver all the presents me and Pipi bought to the people out there.

1st stop, ah moo. Haha. I met him at Tampiness MRT, pass him his present. He like it a lot, but too shy to use la. It's actually a very cute cow milk bottle. Very nice. I asked him to use as water bottle in public. LOL. It's very cute lo, I would buy for myself if I have the money.

2rd stop. ah viv. She's leaving SG for Bali. I managed to catch her at Tampiness before she fly off on Christmas Eve. She like her present! XD We gave her a very nice cigar holder. She fell in love with it la. lol.

3rd stop. Ah Gil. Met him at Tampiness as well. HE'S THE FIRST ONE TO GIVE ME CHRISTMAS PRESENT! Hahaha. And guess wat? It's MONOKO!! The soft toy I totally love at comics connection. THANKS AH GIL!! I totally love it!! Oh ya, we gave him the wallet. LOL. The one on sale de. Wahaha. But he liked it. And it's nice. XD

4th stop. Was Metta. Didn't plan on buying much presents, since, I know some people like dun really appreciate. This yr I clever le. I buy for people who appreciate nia. lol. Metta!! I'm sorry!!! I last min shopping, ran out of ideas!! Wat I buy you this yr is something like what I bought you last yr! LOL. I think she open she's gonna kill me la. But I guess she dun really mind coz it's the thought that counts. ^^ Doremon still rocks right? wahahah.

5th stop was ah des. He was working, so ke lian. Drop by and wished him Merry Christmas. I think it brightens up his day lo. lol. We bought him slippers. Kao. Ex leh. and I have to call him to ask his shoe size. -.-

6th, 7th was my brother and ah Lex. Haha. We drop by lex place to play mahjong and spend the night there. Lex wasn't feeling too good this Christmas (so am I actually) so we decided to go his house and pei him. We had fun. Keep laughing sia. I won again of coz. ^^ So happy. Ordered mac, talk about stuff. After majong they had poker, and I decided to sleep a while. Very tired. By the time I went home is already 10am in the morning. lol.

Didn't visit Jarick as he's busy that day. I think I'm gonna use his present la. lol. hmmm.

This Christmas, wasn't feeling very happy, but I'm glad that I have something to do this Christmas. The people I celebrated with this yr was different from last yr. But, I guess it's good to have changes sometimes. I wonder who I will celebrate Christmas with next yr. lol.

Merry Christmas to all. Sweet wishes to everyone out there. ^^


lol. I tried my first Chivas today. Thanks to Ah Nic. lol. K i know I mountain tortise nv try chivas before. But after the Chivas and some tiger beer, my skin started to itch again. Think a bit too much again today. Haha. But I nv vomited or wat. I still can walk a straight line.

Went to this KTV pub. Drink, poker, and KTV. There's this guy who sang damn well. Super like Jacky Cheung voice can. I almost tot the analog was on. But it was the guy singing la. Anyway. had fun. I watched Eragon today too. Not a bad movie. Thanks Daniel. =)


I very sian, coming back to a family whose parents doesn't approved of wat my dreams and my actions are. I dun like it. They are pushing me too far, controlling me and handling me until I couldn't breathe. I couldn't wait to hit 21 fast. I just wanna move out and chill outside. My heart can take it no more. About their cristism and glares each night. About the fact that they dun even trust their own daughter.

I'm the kind of person when u force me to do something, I wouldn't wanna do it. The more you push me, the more I wouldn't wanna do it. If I ever gave it, I would say it's a huge sacrifice to me. I treasure my diginty. Not coz I'm proud or watever shit. Coz I think I deserve respect from everyone. Like how I respected them.

I couldn't breathe. I just wanna be free. I'm 19. But I'm being controlled like I'm 15 or 16. Why. It's not like I haven't worked before in my entire life. I know wat's reality of the world. I know wat's right and wat's wrong. Why can't they understand?


Hiyee. Back from town. ^^

Went out with the bunch of DET students. Hmmm, I had fun with YaoWei and Robin. Basically we went to watch a movie, Night at the Museum. It wasn't very impressive, but I must say that it's hilarious. There was a lot of funny parts and I enjoyed the movie overall. After movie, I head off to pool with YaoWei and Robin. I didn't play, just sat there and talk cock with them. Catch up, update each other stuff. It's nice to have a chat like that, where I updated them and they updated me on their stuff, share different opinions and ideas on certain issues. I dun like it when I'm the only one talking. I guess that's why I click with guys better then girls. Girls just wanna kpo, guys, well, their advice are probably more useful somehow. =D After they play pool, we felt kinda hungry, wanted to have long john but it was closed already. Had mac instead. =( I miss long john's fries. =D Anyway, reached home at about 12.30. =) And here I am blogging.

Tomorrow movie marathon, plus I should be hanging out with Viv and Nic after movie tml for a few drinks. Viv jio me today, but I told my mum I'll be home after movie, so I told her tml instead. Hmmm. Was kinda surprised that Viv asked me out. But I guess it's a good sign? Anyway, I decided to MIA for a while. No point getting hurt and sad over stuff that you care so much. Probably brought a lot of unhappiness to my surrounding peeps. So ya, I guess MIAing is a good choice for a while.

I need to start on my projects soon. Sigh.

I tot of something yesterday. If something hurts you so much, means you truely care about that thing. Hmmm.


It's been raining whole day. And I'm shivering in my room wishing that spring would just appear tomorrow. Start a brand new year, a brand new start.

Did I mention I'm running a fever? Slight one though. Probably coz I was drench several times this week liao. It's like I'm feeling so cold, yet my head is hot. Dun think I wanna tell my parents. Later they nag at me again.

Couldn't sleep, so decided to switch on my computer again to blog. My heart is feeling heavy. Feel like I wanna cry yet I have no one to turn to. Haha. A moment of weakness.

lol. But then again, I always cried alone, didn't I? *smiles*

Dun you sometimes wish that you are being knocked down by a car, yet still survives but forgotten everything?

Or maybe you wish to get drunk and just cry everything out with someone beside you?

Something hurts me so much inside that I just cannot figure out wat it is. Maybe I shouldn't have started. Maybe I made the mistake again. I dunno wat I'm waiting for. I'm probably just running away again. Like I've always do.

If you're out there to hurt me. Pls dun. Just leave me alone. Go away.

Sometimes, caring too much is pointless coz you'll end up hurting urself even more. I had this experience so many times. Yet, I'm still doing it. Haha. I think I'm really stupid la. I wouldn't learn my lesson one.

Serious. Maybe it's time for me to leave.


I'm happy you've moved on without me. You deserve someone who loves you move then I do. hugs. Take care Jon


I'm rather disappointed and sad today.

I smile or I laugh today is fake de.


happy birthday to my dearest brother! Though he's irritating sometimes, and nv fail to bully me, I still love him all the same. Hope watever he wished for comes true.

I had fun today!! Haha. I never expected myself to have fun during the holidays, (projects projects projects) but today was really an exception la. I suppose to meet Pipi to go chocolate factory one, but I couldn't wake up due to the fact that I went zak until 6am in the morning, and I switch my phone to silent mode and off my vibration. When I woke up I had 36 miss calls. LOL. And Daniel very jian la. He called my mum's HP and wake me up leh. Kao. He still kept my mum's number sia. Anyway, met them at Mac, talk a while, before we head off to a bball court.

Yes! I finally get to play bball. With Ah lex, Ah Daniel and Ah Pipi. I had fun, though I got tired easily. Expected de la, it's been a while since I train my stamina. I seriously miss playing netball in secondary school. Sigh.

Went lex house and bath, no shirt to wear so I borrowed one of his shirt lo. Slack around, play mahjong. My luck was damn good today la. My cards, all very nice ones leh. I almost couldn't believe it lo. I dunno how to describe it, but the whole mahjong session was ultimately fun, joke and laugh a lor. I pity lex la, he lost all his money until he have to top up another 150k from the base we started. And his face throughout the game, very funny. LOL. Pipi fierce, will slam the tiles on the table one. Hahaha.

I WANNA PLAY MAHJONG AGAIN!! lol.


Things to do during the holidays.

- watch movies. Tons and tons of them
- tanning (sunday) =D
- clubbing (pls... *watery eyes*)
- get my zak helm by zaking every single night. (I wish. -.-)

Reality check

- Audio Visual - Assignment 3 - Lightings
Final Project - Modelling
- Games Lvl Design - Card Game
- Design & Art History - Research on Coca Cola (done!!)
- Sculpturing - Armenture and a bit of modelling
- Portfolio - Website (done!!)
- Demo reel
- 20 pieces of art work
- Namecard design (done!!)

Sigh. It's the holidays. My last holidays in NYP. Yet. I HAVE TO STRUGGLE to enjoy them. Sigh. Not to mention, my practicals and my TP coming soon. ROAR. T.T Someone just hug me and tell me it's not the end of the world can?


Dratini's class again. XD

I'm quite looking forward to the holidays actually. Robin suggested a movie marathon on the 21 December. I'm on. It's been a long time since I quit Cathay. I remember our record was 4 movies in a row. Until morning 5.50am we stop watching movies and rotted outside cine before taking a cab home. Haha. Those were the times. =)

Anyone wanna join us? Think YaoWei going too.

Later run home chiong rendering again. Damn sian.

I looking forward to suntan this sunday. Hope I wouldn't be let down ba. And I wanna go clubbing. Roar.

Blog again another time. ^^


Projects to Cover.

- Game Card Concept (Games Level Design)
- Portfolio
- Interior Lightings (Visual and Audio Effects)
- Final Project (Vicual and Audio Effects)
- Drawings (Sculpturing)

Roar. I. am. stress. Sob.


As usual, every year when christmas approaches, this song willbe uploaded in my blog. Dun ask me why. It just gives me the mood for this season. However, this season is a little sad. I nv felt this sort of saddess during christmas before. Normally I love christmas. Probably coz, I know things will be different this yr. I'm no longer celebrating christmas at that place. The place that I miss so much.

Why ain't I going back? I'm afraid of changes, probably. I'm afraid that my life will take another turnabout. Back to my workaholic self. No more freedom. Etc. I guess that's what makes me hesitate. But I know deep down, it's wat I wanna do. I gotta face it sooner or later. Next yr ba. =)


Artist: Mariah Carey Lyrics
Song: All I Want For Christmas Is You Lyrics

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You

All I want for Christmas is you baby
[repeat]


OMG!!! I SPEND 4 HOURS ON MY DIGITAL PAINTING TODAY AND IT'S ALMOST FINISHING CAN! AND PHOTOSHOP JUST CRASHES ON ME! CRY.

4 freaking house on the portrait leh, and it crashes! I wanna cry la!! REALLY LO. T.T Now I cannot even put my digital painting into my portfolio la. I SO MUCH WANTED TO CAN.


Kao eh. WHole day project. Damn stress. Only can play game at night. ROAR.

Hmmm, missing someone.

ROAR. I'M BORED. I HATE PROJECTS.


lol. Another random post. XD

Met up with Ah des and Ah pipi just now. Ah des failed his basic theory again la. OMG LO. He failed 5 times in a row liao leh. I buay tahan liao la. Also dunno how to help him this time round. zzzz.

Ah des send me home today. lol. It's been a while since he last send me home. Hmmm. I forgot to mention Ah lex send me home once too. ^^

I wanna go suntan. ROAR. Si Metta not free pei me. Sigh. I'm sure Amanda also not free de. I WANNA SUNTAN! My tan is dying off le. I need my tan back. CRY.

I wanna play bball. Find one day ask ah lex pei me.

I WANNA GO SHOPPING. SOB. I SAW A LOT OF NICE SHOES TODAY BUT I CANNOT BUY.

very xin ku. Cry.


Now is like 11.30am. Class is suppose to start 30 mins ago. But Dratini hasn't set up his stuff la. So I'm rather bored right now. Decided to blog some crap before lesson start.

So sleepy. Nope, I haven't found a job yet. Still wondering how to survive la. Christmas is coming, dun even have the money to celebrate christmas. Went Orchard yesterday night, saw the christmas lights felt a bit of heaviness in my heart. Last christmas, I was still at Cathay. It was fun. I wonder how this yr's christmas will be like.

I miss my netball trainings. I miss working in Cathay. I miss my secondary school life. ROAR.

Omg, Dratini playing resident evil 2 in class. Something about ambrient shit. Sigh. Lecture class so cold. Everytime forgot to bring jacket.

I got a lot of stuff to do this weekend. Quite a lot of shit to rush, not sure if I got time for my game. Sian.

Sorry for this crap entry. lol. I just not sure wat to blog about these days. Life seems so meaningless.

All I want for Christmas is you~


I need a job. Fast.

Today no mood to drive sia. Made thousands of mistakes. But you know wat, I seriously nv thought of giving up. I just wanna pass my TP on the 5th of Jan. 1 more month from now. I MUST PASS. I dun wanna waste anymore MONEY on my driving le. Period.

I thinking whether I should go my brother's place to work. But there comfirm very dangerous de. Just thinking, wondering, sigh.

Sure I do enjoy my freedom. I mean, ever since I left secondary school I've been working non stop. It's nice to be jobless for a while. I love my freedom, but then,when the money runs dry, I guess it's time to give up my freedom.

Meaning, no time for friends, for whoever and ever, etc.

Sad.

I still have my HP bills to pay. It's kinda worrying me.

Sigh. So screwed


Secretly blogging right now. Super sian. Sorry for not blogging regularly these days too. Too tired. A lot of sutff had been happening, just didn't update it here. omg. Instead of updating I wish I can meet my friends soon la. Any1 can just date me out ma. T.TI'm busy but not that busy ma. Ask me out I not tired or wat I sure steady de. T.T

I'm sort of in trouble right now. My savings is down to 300 bucks. And I still have 8 to 10 driving lessons to go. And my hp bill for this month cozts 209 bucks. I feel so dead la. Okie. Correction. I'm seriously dead. zzzz. I need to work soon. But I'm rather worried about my sch stuff lo. Afraid I not much time to do my projects and stuff. Sigh. But no choice ba. This christmas so broke la, how to buy christmas present anymore? I'm so dead lo. Both brothers birthday this month, I also no money buy. Mum's birthday next month, I'M JUST SO DEAD LA. Daniel decided to lend me 200 without my consant. He knows I hate to borrow money de, but he knows I need it and I will return ba. I told him I find job first then borrow, coz, I not working, I hard to return the money le. But I really appreciate that he's willing to lend me his savings lo. Then he also looking out for jobs for me too. Sigh. Anyone wanna support me ma. T.T

"HELLO ANTHONY HERE !!!! AHAHAHAHHAHAHA"

OMG. My friend just come over and type that stupid sentence there la. Super lame can. zzzz.

Went out yesterday. Was really late for the movie "Open Season" and the movie ended in a flash la. The movie isn't fantastic. Sigh. After that we walked around Marina Square, I tired not to see too much of stuff, just in case I see something I want then I feel sad I cannot buy. =C

We had a "King" tagging along yesterday. "King" refers to MJ, Viv's cousin. He's rather cute actually, just that I'm kid shy and he's also shy, so we didn't really click that well. Except the part where he's at the arcade and we decided to play Bishi Bashi. LOL. He's cute la, he keep losing, and he like not happy that I keep winning him in the games. Ah Moo too. Keep losing but he wanted to complete the game with us, so he keep spamming his coins at that machine. Me and Pipi own la. Even my brother lost. Wahahaha. And the machine like give us hit until spoil. Coz the screen was flicking after a few times we hit the machine. Well. It's call "Bishi Bashi" wat. We are suppose to bish and bash the machie, right? =X

And the whole lot of us played Daytona. As usual I choose auto coz I noob, while the rest of them choose manual. The first game I almost got first can. ALMOST!! ROAR!!! It was until I lost my speed at the last turn. WHY!!! OMG!! Then Pipi and my brother caught up when they drift forward, I landed up third in place. Second game, I started off bad la. But I still landed up 2nd in place. Lalalala!

Bowling was next, I WAS WEARING SKIRT FOR GOODNESS SAKE. ROAR. And they still forced me to bowl. T.T Me and ah lex got the same score. ROAR. So sad. T.T I was leading one le. In the end Moo top us all, not bad for a noob. We're all noobs yesterday. XD

I had fun yesterday. Didn't fight much with dear yesterday too. Yesterday was peaceful. ^^

I'M GONNA GET ZAK HELM TONIGHT. ROAR.

Pray for me. T.T

Name's Wendy (aka wencas)
Birthday falls on the 3rd April
I'm an Aries. Exact. Same. Personality.
Attached happily to Calvin Shing Jia Yong.
Well, that's all you need to know, right?



craves :
Ipod Nano ?
A red Nintendo DS Lite sweeetttt ;)
A Flat Screen TV
TV Cable
Constant Traveling with my one and only ^^
More shoes!
Drama Shows
Comics
ODM Watch got a puma one =D
A perfect wallet braun buffel wakakaka
Brazailian wax ouch
W890i Sony Ericsson
More clothes ^^










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