I dunno why I'm feeling this way. There's so much things I wanna say. But it seems like I can't really put myself into words. Seems like I didn't overcome my own barrier after all. Haha. I open my mouth, nothing comes out. I tried to speak. Nothing comes out either. No sound. Not a word.

I watched Happy Feet today, it's a nice show. Hilarious really. Ah lex was sleeping beside me peacefully, and was shaken awake when I suddenly burst out laughing during the movie. lol. I love the song. Really nice. =)

Whole day heart was kinda aching. Something just pains me so much. I hope I'll get over it soon. Soon.

Oh well, this week a lot of things to rush. Hopefully I'll be fine. Yup. I'll be strong. I hope.











The girls. =D










NYP group. LOL.












HuiTing~












Wahaha. I'm the angel from above. LOL. Eh, dun puke le. lol













Cynthia













My idea de. =D Taking photo with the mirror. Wahahaha.














Me and Birthday girl . Muacks! Happy birthday Jess! Love you so much!


Some maple wedding photos. ^^










Me and my guild members. =D










My bride friends.











Me, lao gong and Eve. lol. Yup. Neydar is Eve. Wahaha











Me and Lao gong friends.


Morning ladies and gentlemen. Decided to give a blog entry before I sleep. Since it's been a while.

Been a bit happening also, dunno where I should start I guess.

I bought my wacom already. It's been good so far. A bit heart pain when I swipe my card and having my account 279 bucks less. Though it's my dad's money, but then, I still do feel the pain lol.

I love my Wacome Graphire 4. MUACKS! Suddenly got motivation to do stuff le. Wahaha.

Anyway. Money issues been on my mind lately. Maybe I should get the ice cream job soon. LOL. Jess! Recommand le. Can no need interview go in ma. =D

And oh, that day I bought my wacom, I went Cathay to watch Material Girls. Not much of a story line, but they have gorgerous shoes and gowns that I would die to wear. lol. And Hilary look so good. Better then ever. Oh yes, watched the movie with Ah Des, my brother, and Ah Pipi. =D Thanks guys. I love pipi lots. ^^

Anyway, I went clubbing recently too. Didn't really gt very high coz we weren't allowed in Gothem, no free drinks = no high. AWWWW!! CRY!!! SOB!! But it's okie. I get to see a cute guy, Jess de friend. Just find him cute la. lol. AND MY DJ TANG!! OMG!!! My husband!! I MISS HIM SO MUCH LA. My husband cute right?! ROAR! lol.











lol. Saw Jess drank Waterfall that day. So shiok sia, and she still okie after drinking it le. I think if me, I cmi liao. I had fun with the girls, I dance until my legs so tired. AND WE TOOK PHOTOS!! At our all time favourite place. The ladies. ^^ lalala~

A lot of things have been happening around me. Like my maple wedding. Can say it's a bang. You should have seen. It was fun. lol. And guild a lot of happenings. Sigh. Really like a lot of stuff happening. Seems like I know everything yet there's no one to share it to.

Have another outing. Ah Des, Ah Pipi, Ah Moo, Ah Gil, Ah Cai, Ah Viv, Ah Lex. And of coz. Me. HAPPY FEET!! Lalala. Finally get to watch it man.

I got craving for ice cream. It's like, a banana split image just pop up in my mind. lol.

Til then. Muacks!


I finally get to see how Vivo City looks like. Thanks to Ah Cow, Ah Viv, Ah Gil, Ah Cai, Ah PiPi and Ah Lex who pei me go Vivo watch 007. The movie wasn't so bad, and the place crowded like hell la. LOL. The cinema very big also. Not bad, I think I'll love the place ther if it wasn't so crowded.

After movie, we went Party World. Had a tiring day. Nevertheless, I had fun, though a bit quiet, coz I tired ma.

I ate a lot. =.= The snacks at Party World no one wanna eat, dun waste, so I eat lor. The fruits also. T.T The stupid gang keep making fun of me de. Damn sad la. lol.

Very tired. When I come home someone didn't welcome me with open arms. A bit disappointed.

I love my new phone. Ty everyone. My N71 my brother wants it. Selling him at a price of 400.

Dad gave me money to go buy my Wacom le. Feel bad le. Sigh. But it means I have to go down Cityhall AGAIN to get my stuff. Anyone wanna accompany me tml?

K la. I go sleep le. Tuesday start driving again. Feel a bit nervous la. Coz like 1 month or 2 nv drive le. Hope nothing goes wrong.

You know wat? The person who made you sad, can make you happy again. So true right? The person got the power to make you happy, can also make you sad. Scary.

Muacks guys. I'm doing better these days. Thanks for everyone's concern.

Date me out too. It's been a while since I last catch up with my sisters and cathay troop. Been hanging out with guild members too much. Haha.

I love my friends. I love my parents. I love Jarick. I love my sisters. I love every single soul out there. Muacks. A big hug to everyone.

Btw, Ah Chun ar, I nv blame you. No need say sorry to me. I just du lan that day I go home with nothing and I'm so tired la. lol.

Til the next entry. Take care guys!


...

I reached home today feeling tired, depressed, and rotten.

I didn't catch a movie just now, by the time we had our lunch at KFC no more time la. So we rotted around amk. Really rotted.

So basically I travelled from yck, to amk, back to yck again, coz I followed them back to sch for lecture. I plan to skip though, no point going coz I got no tutorial later.

Met up with Chun to go SimLim, alighted at bugis, and we walked, and we walked, and we walked.

We both got lost la.

How lame right. I everytime go to sim lim with someone who knows the way la. Today me and Chun dunno how to walk then we lost lor.

Stopped by KuanYin Mao to pray. I got a bad lot. Wat the charm say is so true la, these days I'm down on my luck, watever I do will be quite jia lat.

Nvm, didn't tot much of it.

Anyway, upon reaching SimLim finally, we walked like about 10 shops to find my wacom la. Found 2 shops that sell 288 bucks. I decided to go Funan mall to check the price there coz I heard there cheaper la.

Walk back to bugis MRT station.

Sit train to Cityhall, walk to Funan Mall.

By then, my legs are already breaking liao. Trust me.

I found a wacom that cost 279 bucks. Suddenly, I just couldn't bring myself to buy it la. It's not like I dun have the money. It's just that, I bu she de spend the money. Really bu she de. But I want that fucking wacom so badly la. I wanted it since dunno when lo.

I went to Swenson had my dinner, and I called my mum, ask for advice. And guess wat.

After all the walking, and sometimes walking in the rain, I decided to go back empty handed.

And I'm very pissed. I dun like the feeling going home empty handed when I really wanna buy. But I bu she de buy.

I'm just fucking pissed that I wasted my time when I actually can go home and do my project. Now I'm just too fucking tired to do now la.

Some people just care too much about their own feelings to care about mine can?

And you're not there when I needed you to.

Came home, my mum told my dad about the wacom I wanted to buy. My dad say wanna take money from my step sis. I dun want. I dun really wanna take much money from my parents. They should spend their money on their ownselves.

I just feel like I wanna die la.

So much to do, yet, I dun have the motivation to do anything. So tired.

Oh ya, I sat a cab back. From Funan ITE Mall, to Woodlands. cost a bloody fee of 22 bucks.

I didn't get my wacom, but I spend so much la.

You know wat? I hate it when all I blog these days are so depressing. It's not like I want it. But right now, right at this moment, life just suck so badly that... that I felt like no one can listen to me cry.

I want a hug. Please tell me everything is gonna be fine la.


NOTE: I dun really know wat I'm writting now la, please just ignore me. I'm just simply in a bad mood without anyone to cheer me up.


So much stuff to do.

My assignment die liao la. Yesterday night too tired to get much touch ups done.

Sigh.

Things to be done:

• Finish up my driving lessons. If I not wrong I still have 500 bucks worth of lessons to go. Gambatte.
• Get a wacom asap. Cost 200 bucks. Planning to get the graphic tablet instead of the intrus.
• Get a new handphone. Time to get rid of my damn n71. I think about my phone now I no mood lor. Any one wanna buy me new hp on Christmas?
• I just change my hard disk cover, very sad.

Altogether I need to spam money. I very sad. Any rich man wanna take me in and support me ma? LOL.

Projects to be done

• Texturing for Audio Effects
• To be continued.

Watching movie with friends. Bye!

Wat am I blogging so late at night?

Coz.

I FORGOTTEN TML GOT ONE ASSIGNMENT HAVE TO HAND IN!!

I totally forgotten to touch up. OMG. Need to touch up now lor. Sigh. I so much wanted my bed lor. Cry.

Anyway, today quite a lot of stuff happen. Wanted to share with people de, but I guess no time only can blog about it.

Vamp got this colleuge, who secretly got my hp number while Vamp was charging his phone, and call me. I was like who the hell it was la. Say wanna make friends and stuff. One thing for sure, I know it's malay. The way he talk, like malay. First thing I tot of is Vamp, so after we put down the phone, I sms Vamp say issit her call trying to joke or not. Vamp called me, I hear his voice, different le. I ps, then I put down the phone la. He message me back tell me that it's his work friend, and how he got my number. SO sick can. That person got a wife with 5 kids still womanise outside. Please la. Dun make me feel so cheap can. I'm not someone who give people one night stand la. Got 5 kids, 45 years old, still wanna make friend with me. I hope next life he born as a ant so I can crush him easily. Make me feel so disgusted can. I wasn't angry with Vamp la, just that, ask him to be careful with his phone. WTF LA.

Another gross thing happen. I went to buy a new hard disk casing coz mine like cannot make it liao. That guy in the store keep flirting with me with is super gross can. Keep telling his work mates that I am pretty. PLEASE. I'm here for the hard disk not for u to comment on me la. But not so bad he say I pretty so give me discount. The hard disk casing I bought for 15 bucks la. LOL.

I hang out with YiChun today. Had fun. Updated her stuff. Ya. I miss Amanda. Sigh. SuPing too.

And of coz my beloved Jess and Metta.

Sigh.

K la. Enough liao. I go rush my project. CRY.

Oh ya, I cried 2 times today la. One was when Ah Lex say I want my dear dun want my friends, I super sad la. I both also want. Can ma. Sigh. Then he tell me he just kidding. WTH. Second time was I scared until cry la. That one damn bo liao. Sian. Somemore I cry for nothing. Crap.

if the person doesn't love you the way you want her to, doesn't mean that she dun love you at all. She just love you in another way. Sigh.












Ahoy to my friends! Hahaha.

Before I start on wat happen during my weekends, I just wanna blog something that's on my mind now. Sometimes I just wish that you can be more striaghtforward la. It's not like I'm gonna hate you for wat you gonna say. I rather you just say wat you wanna say, regardless it's important or not, then to hide and I spend the whole time guessing wat are you thinking. It's not funny. It's not like I'm not gonna care what you're gonna say. Right now is your exams, as much as I wanna take the exams for you, I couldn't, I just hope that this week pasts as fast as possible so that you can have your holidays. I dunno wat to do so I could help you, if I'm such a bother, making you upset all the time, maybe I'm just not the one for you ba. As your dear, I wasn't really happy to see u being with me and feel so upset, makes me feel like .. very lousy la. If you aren't happy, just tell me, at least I know wat's wrong.

Enough about that.

Anyway, yesterday we had a 1 night chalet at Costa Sands with my friends in game, and we seriously had fun la. One thing about us all are that we're considered mature players, and we are really out to have fun. It's more like a crash party. lol. Enought about the details on wat we're doing, basically we played mahjong, poker, indian poker, and stuff like that. Omg lo, indian poker is scary. They stuff me with chicken wings and hotdogs. And it was hilarious la, the way my brother and viv kena. LOL. Viv got diamond ace, then when she decided to change her cards, she got the flower ace so comfirm she kena one lo. But everyone very good le, gave her eat mashmellows. Kao. When I kena they sabo me with chicken wing le!! The whole plate of chicken wing!! And the second time, they sabo with OTAH. OMG. These 2 food I hated most one they spam so much on the plate for me. ARGH. I feel fat at the end of the day. Anyway, Viv drank a bit, I didn't drink partly coz I dun like beer, and partly coz I cannot drink too much or someone will angry la. zzz. After that, we kinda play mahjong through out the night, I lost about 100k like that, need to give viv. LOL. If not she come find me ingame and throw pig head. wahaha.

Conclusion yesterday? I find Gil really lame. OMG. He's sooooooooo lame can. There's once I say "Thanks" and he could tell me tangs in orchard road. OMG!! Any oh, today's Desmond's birthday! Happy birthday!! Yesterday we surprised him with cake le!! =D And his cake is like a forest fire. Hahahaah. We insisted putting 25 candles instead of 2 big and 5 small candles. It really look like a forest fire. LOL.














HAHAHA. Really like forest fire lo. Omg. So funny. Hahaha. Hmmm, Lex was rather quiet, but he crap a lot when my brother crap with him. LOL.

Alright, I had fun. Looking forward to more outings. =D





Omg. I just have to start on my assignments la. But I seriously have no drive for it lo. Somebody help me!

Alright, basically, things are amazingly perking up these days. I'm sorry to those who has been reading my blog, Actually got quite a number of things to update, but then, seriously no mood ar. Things have been down ever since I quit my job and my hp incident. I lost some money at Bods, my hp is still not okie, really very fed up with it, school has been stressed lately as well, and I'm lacking sleep every single night la. Can the holidays just come or not?

Stupid KerHisen also having problem with his guild shop account la. Those passwords he gave me all wrong de, now the previous guild owe gupi ramen and money lo, seriously need to get my red whip too, now red whip cost a bomb, and I need money in maple la. Then I keep asking password from him like very paiseh lo. Not like I want that account la, but a lot of stuff there de lo. zzz.

I went bunk on Tuesday la. Was fun though I used up 7 safety charms there. I mean, I get to meet up with Ah Gil and Ah Viv. It's nice to be real life friends instead of everything also maple de. Please la, for those who wanna comment again, my life isn't all about maple, I still having bbq on Sunday with my guild members, just a few of them, but hanging out having fun is the most important thing la. Anyway, like I said bunk was fun, hope get to meet up with them more often coz they are fun and sincere people.

School is also getting better for me. Maybe coz my expectations for my friends in sch has lowered down, I'm just hanging out with them when we can lo. Cannot also nvm, buay steady, also nvm, coz I guess I still have other friends outside. Maybe we're just too different ba. Ya. But dun misunderstand me, it's acutally better this way that I dun expect much, coz I feel happier ar. Wouldn't be disappointed so many times mah. Ya.

Sunday we're going escape le!! During the chalet. Wahahaha. I first time there, hope can have fun la. Okie I know I mountain tortise, I 19 le nv go escape before cannot believe right. No one pei me ma, all say very boring, =.= Hope Sunday can have fun with Viv they all la. =D

You know wat? I just wanna finish up all of my projects NOW and enjoy myself la. Now enjoy keep thinking about my projects very sian one. K ba, I go do le, if not I forever cannot finish.


PEOPLE WHO ARE BORN IN APRIL:

Active and dynamic. (=D)
Decisive and haste but tends to regret. (False le. I hardly regret my decisions.)
Attractive and affectionate to oneself. (I ONLY LOVE MYSELF. LOL)
Strong mentality. (I'm pretty determined)
Loves attention. (eh, not really. I like my friends' attention nia. =D)
Diplomatic. (erm.. meaning?)
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. (Oh yea!)
Brave and fearless. (I scared of cockroaches de. =.=)
Adventurous. (Erm, not really too)
Loving and caring. (I care. But I forgotten how to love. =D)
Suave and generous. (Wat'suave? But I'm generous. Wahaha)
Emotional. (Very)
Aggressive. (I just speak wat's on my mind. Wrong meh. ROAR)
Hasty. (Ya, I do things very kan cheong one.)
Good memory. (=.= Dun think so)
Moving (YES! MY WORDS OF ADVICE VERY MOVING DE. Wahahaha)
Motivates oneself and others. (Aiya, no one to motivate me ma.)
Sickness usually of the head and chest. (Chest no le. Head got ba)
Sexy in a way that only their lover can see. (HAHAHAHAHA)

Conclusion. This analysis is CRAP.

Thanks for reading through. LOL


I am so tired.

sigh


Leon..walking zombie..I need inspiration somewhere... says:
u seems very cheerful..
Leon..walking zombie..I need inspiration somewhere... says
u will smile after finishing typing a sentence..:


lolx. Thanks. Tat's what most people tell me.

I am cheerful most of the time I guess. Actually, I feel sad and down, but I still smile. I can smile and cry at the same time. To people it seems like I'm strong. Haha. Please, think again. ^^

There's school tml. Damn sian.

Everything changes in sch and everything suck la.

Stress.

Can I just die?

Going PC bunk on Tuesday.


Okie. Suppose to do my homework, but then, tot of idea damn fast. Dunno why. Haha.

I'm tired la. Yesterday went Zaking with a few online friends, Zak until 7am in the morning. Today actually plan going to cine to Zak de, but then, Des didn't finish his quest, so no point, we went CWP and watch movie instead. Met up with MeiPing la, and even my brother say she look like me. She seem normal to me lo, u know sometimes net friends some siao siao de. Haha. But I can click with her very well, she's like a twin I nv had. Serious. ^^

Watched "Flushed Away" and the movie wasn't very bad.

After that we slack at mac for an hour or so talking and chatting away. lolx. Me, Des, my brother and MeiPing. ^^

Feeling tired, probably gonna sleep early. Tomorrow meeting Janna and gang for dinner. So happening ever since I quit my job. lolx.


I dunno why these days isn't like wat I expected to be.

There's so many things I wanna say, too many people reading.

So many things happen today, so much I wanna say.

When Jess left me in the train, I just feel like crying.

I controlled, then cry when I alighted and walking home alone.

How long did I last cry on the way back home while walking?

I do not want advice, neither I want solutions. I just want someone to hug me and tell me everythings okie.

I just wanna cry.

Things happened today:

school sucks.
design history class wasn't that bad.
couldn't meet meiping and des for movie. meiping OT.
didn't meet danial though he called me out.
met up with jess, angeline and sam.
went ktv with jess and sam
had fun

Sigh, if she's so lucky, she's a star, but she cry cry cry in her lonely heart thinking if there's nothing missing in my life then whey do these tears come at night?

You know wat. When I'm feeling so down, I treasure nothing more then my cathay friends and my secondary sch friends. I'm so thankful, that I have friends who could understand me so well, and know wat to say at the same time.

But still, sigh. nvm forget it

Name's Wendy (aka wencas)
Birthday falls on the 3rd April
I'm an Aries. Exact. Same. Personality.
Attached happily to Calvin Shing Jia Yong.
Well, that's all you need to know, right?



craves :
Ipod Nano ?
A red Nintendo DS Lite sweeetttt ;)
A Flat Screen TV
TV Cable
Constant Traveling with my one and only ^^
More shoes!
Drama Shows
Comics
ODM Watch got a puma one =D
A perfect wallet braun buffel wakakaka
Brazailian wax ouch
W890i Sony Ericsson
More clothes ^^










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