Friday, September 22, 2006 ♥
It's been a long and wild day. Wild because I've been thinking alot about my relationship today. And it's happening again. Jonathan Mah's case is happening again. Except this time is with Desmond Goh.
I didn't really blog about this because I myself not sure about my own feelings. Right now I think I just wanna blog wat had happened la. Just to clarify stuff. Anyone who have any advise or anything can just shoot.
I am not sure if I like him. And I think, I didn't give myself time to think about it, and went into a relationship. He treats me well, a scropio, and he's like everything a scropio is. He calls me every morning to wake me up, he calls me every night when I go to sleep, he worries, he cares about me. But then, wat is it that I'm not happy about in the relationship? I mean, I should treasure him right?
But I notices my feelings for him aren't those like I had with my ex boyfriends. Maybe I'm just not ready.
I talked toMetta today. About him. Metta say I dun really like him. I just like how he treats me. I'm just lonely. Lonely.
"Only the lonely gets depress" keeps ringing in my head.
Lonely.
You guys know why I maple? Coz I'm lonely. Yes. I admit. I'm lonely. Everyone is busy with their stuff. Everytime they hang out, it's always with their partners. Sometimes, I just dun wanna hang out coz I really do feel extra. I rather stay at home. And play game. I'm lonely.
Wow. I didn't actually admitted it did I? It's been a while since I blog my real feelings here. Since FYPJ ended.
There. Sometimes, things I dun wanna say, coz it's some private feelings that I'm ashamed to share. But I'm sharing now.
So, I didn't know wat to do. I'm just a bit confused over my feelings now.
Yup.
So anyway, I hang out with Melvin and PeiYi yesterday at pizza hut. It was fun. The pizza was omfg. LOL. Nice. I think it's our favourite hang out outlet liao. After that we went around walking, saw one maple magazine and we ALMOST bought it. Luckily we didn't coz PY was around to stop us. LOL. Fun shopping with them. We talked about almost everything.
Then Desmond came and we watch Devil Wears Prada. Nice movie. =) He send me home after that.
Today hang out with my troop. I'm.. quite... surprised and shocked that there's so much stuff going on. I think I shouldn't say much, but I'm seriously worried about our future days. I just hope we can survive la. lol. Watched John Tucker Must Die. Hilarious. XD
Alright. Finished. Sigh. Tml will be a better day.
calwen @ 1:47 AM