Wednesday, September 27, 2006 ♥
Had some time for an entry.
Wat can I say. Seeing how two of my friends struggling with their emotional turnover, I wanna help but I know myself I cannot help much. The more I say wouldn't probably lead to more quarrels and stuff. Heart kinda ache to see things happen like that. But it's nobody's fault seriously, it's just a process of life, things like that happen. Sigh.
My heart is aching myself. My uncle is in hospital. I not sure if most of you guys know, but then, my uncle has AIDS for very long while now, and he kena cancer recently. I think Metta knows la, I did mention somehow when I was late night chatting with her. Cannot make it le. Which makes me feel a bit frighten about life. How easily stuff like that take away. Wat if I kena something and gonna die in 3 months time that sort of thing. zzzz. My mum was crying the past two days. How life can be so short. I'm scared. No matter how much I feel like dying sometimes, I'm still scared to think that wat if I'm gonna die?
I remembr my uncle being hilarious. Though a bit perverted, aiya, uncle ma. zzz. He looks kinda scary at first sight, with his left (or was it right?) eye gone, only his the other eye working. He look like the typical gangster, but he was nv like that. He nv really do any sins in his life as well, except the fact when his wife died, he went to indo and gao nu ren, until he kena AIDS come back to Singapore. He comes to our house often, even when he has AIDS. I mean, I nv felt fear of being affected, coz I know how AIDS passed around. I study bio ma. zzz. He's strong, fighting until now. If I'm not wrong, he's fighting for 5 years le.
I think wat upsets my mum was that my auntie didn't visit him. That auntie all along nv regard her family as family one. She's just all about $$ and $$ and $$, and when my uncle was rich she will come back just for the money, and if not, the money she all keep to herself de. I'm glad that somehow, me and my brothers weren't like that. Or, I hope we wouldn't be like that in the future. I love my brothers, they treat me good and dote on me. I love my parents too, though sometimes things happen about $$ and things turn ugly. But one can never escape the fact that it's family. Some people doesn't give their family a chance to communicate, I guess I did give them a try and put myself in their shoes. That's why I still believe in my family no matter how many shits we been through.
A lot of stuff is going through in my life now. Not sure if I'd cry, but I'll hang on. After all, life is like that. I know I'm not alone. =)
calwen @ 6:20 PM