Thursday, August 03, 2006 ♥
I'm just soooo grooving into the music man. LOL. All the oldies just came coming back. "Bye Bye Bye" "Do You Remember" "God Must Have Spend a Little More Time On You" and so on. Man. What is life without music? It just speaks those words that no one could actually say. Beofore anyone start judging me again, I'm not only talking about EMO songs. I'm taking about songs with meanings. Happy ones, "Absolutely Everybody" just makes me wanna jump up and dance. Besides, except for techno, every song has it's meaning ma. BESIDES TECHNO. Until now, I still dunno how to appreciate techno. The only time when I actually try to like it was when I'm with KaiLun lor. He like techno ma, as a girlfriend must try and appreciate it. LOL.
I guess a lot of people expecting me to say something emo here. You know wat. I just dun have to mood to pour my feelings here. No point if people just come in read and just judge you. After all, people are not me, some people just couldn't bother to understand la. Not everyone is as free as me. I practically try too hard to help people and understand them la. Looking back, sometimes I wonder why I bother. People still treat me like shit wat. LMAO.
I think my friends would be glad to see me growing up. Right Metta? lol. I used to do everything for a friend. Not close I also help til the end. So naive right? Somemore I kena backstab so many times I still help out. Not bad ne. I still so trusting. Like an idiot.
But I must say I know how to protect my feelings now. Good bad? Good coz I wouldn't be so much hurt now. Bad coz I see the ugly side of humans. I still wanna believe the world is beautiful. Part of me still wanna stay naive.
But guess wat, nothing is perfect in the world la. It's either this or that. In the past, it's either friends or my boyfriend. In the end? I lost both. Haha. Life just sucks, but I never fail to try and look at it positively. Tell me, when I ever actually feel depress? I normally will self console de. LOL. After all, it's not the end of the world isn't it?
All I ask for is simple understanding. If u're out there to hurt me, I prefer to be alone.
Of coz, I believe you're not. =) Hurt le I still believe my friends. Stupidity. There's so much in life I need to experience la.
YiChun! I wanna go K! Amanda! I wanna meet you for company and dinner!
Metta, Jess! I also wanna sit and rot wit you guys.
It's been a while since I last watch a freaking decent movie. The last movie I watch was Silent Hill. Which is lame. Waste of money. Lol. How nice if like last time can everyday watch movies free. One movie can watch 2 3 times. I never used to need to pay for my movie tickets. XD Eh wait, sorry. the last time is Superman. LOL. Okie la. XD
Just some thoughts and feelings. LOL.
Kao, feel like sleeping sia. Eh! Those who have been reading my blog. TAG LE!
calwen @ 12:13 PM