Sunday, August 13, 2006 ♥
I read KJ's blog. Haha. How funny the distance is now. I kinda like know nothing about wat's going on le. Which is rather sad lor. I know I shouldn't feel insercure. Maybe it's a good thing that I dunno anything. But it's sad coz no one wants to find me to confide in. Maybe coz I'm not really close to them in the first place. I mean, friends after all, is to confide with, to talk about ur problems ma. It's not all about happiness. Haha. But then, maybe all along, the feelings they have for me are just, someone there. A being to make us 6. Maybe I'm not that important after all.
I'm not saying I'm sad until I wanna cry that kind. Frankly, my heart isn't really that sad. I guess it's time to move on with life le. They will still call me out to hang, but I think that's it. I'm just someone for company, not someone to confide in la.
No matter how many times I say, I'm here for you. I'm always willing to listen, I guess to them I'm just not the person they'll think of when they have probs la. =) Kinda accepted that long ago. With Metta, Jess, KJ, Angeline. Or even Sam. =) I'm just someone who eats cookies to them, LOL. Cookie monster ma. XD I still love them la. Haha. Hope everything is alright lor.
Well, I talked to Ken just now. Ken from Cathay. He say he going back work le. Haha. Then he like say miss me lor. Haha. I shy ne. XD I really appreciate those who missed me back at work. Really. Makes me feel like I'm not forgotten by them. I miss concess. I miss being the fast one washing and cleaning everything up. I miss Helmie. I miss Boy so much. Omg. I miss my first day a Usher, I still remember the smell of usher hallway. I remembered saying to myself. "Wow. I'm working at Cathay." I miss Box office, the place where I'm always at counter 1, being fast, cracking jokes with Tsha, Eve, or Metta who's either one is my helper. I remember when Box Office tore down the glass. That day was the day I returned from Thai with Eve. Haha. So fun. It makes me think that's what I wanna do in the future. It's hard to find a job that you enjoy doing. I'm soooo workaholic in the past. Now in the work industry I'm working in, I just wanna get over and done with. At Cathay, I never had that kind of feeling. I only wanted to leave coz I need a break, and in my heart, I know I dun wanna leave forever. I'll be back. Someday.
And I'll learn things all over again. =)
Aiyah, I'm just bullshitting again la. Who knows I cannot go back for some reason also. Hahaha. So maybe I'll just finish my attachment then say la. XD.
calwen @ 11:51 PM