Friday, July 28, 2006 ♥
I've basically finished my work already. Left 4 textures that I need to take when I go down to Orchard tomorrow. I'll leave the remaining for Monday ba. Wanna slack todya. Feel like sleepy however, been lacking for sleep for a few days. I didn't get to level in maple yesterday coz this PRIMARY SCHOOL KID ask me maths problem sums. And I didn't wanna reject her so i helped her solve. T.T Waste my time le. I even died once, and it's saddening. Hai. wanna block her liao. Sian. Then yesterday waste my time on Maple lo. Good news is that my brother gave me a Maple card. I love my brother!!! He sometimes very good sometimes very bad de. =X I still love my family nevertheless la.
Weird. When I was young, I used to hate my family a lot. I come from a complicated background, and money seems to be most of our problems, but when I grow older, no matter wat the problems are, I still appreciate them somehow. From youn, til now. How much I've changed. We never know wat will happen in the future I guess. Everything is so unpredictable. I just need to learn how to appreciate things that I have now.
Andrew (Cathay de) made my day. He called and we chatted on the phone. It feels good if people remembered you and bother making a call. I'm rather touched. I miss Andrew lots. I miss those times when I'm in Cathay with sincere friends around. But issit good if friends work together? I not sure. It's like, working together comfirm will got conflicts. It still scare me how alone I am when I'm condamned by them. I haven't forgotten them that's for sure, I miss them everyday, but I guess we all are moving on with life. We're all growing up. Not very good if we always rely on the same person all the time. She'll be tired, so will I. Talking to Andrew makes me think of all the things I've been through in Cathay. All the friends I've made. Are they, for real? Do they really care about me? Thinking so much, but sometimes it's good to reflect what I'm doing. Like all my close friends know, I just wanna be happy. I hate complications, and I dun wanna make life difficult for anyone. I just wanna see people sincerely happy, not put a cover. It seems so fake, if I'm really ur good friend you would trust me and remove ur cover. Just some thoughts about friendship. I'm beginning to believe that nothing last forever. It's time that I grow up and stop being naive as well le. I will only treasure friends who treasure me. Daniel called today to ask me for dinner. Simple things. Simple things that would just make me smile. Not call me and ask for help, or whether you're feeling lonely etc. Call and chat, ask how I'm doing, wanna have dinner, it would totally make my day. It would make anyone's day.
I love my friends who understand and care for me. Those times when I feel so down, when I feel like killing myself, they were there to cry with me, to laugh with me when I'm happy, to share. I dunno wat I'll do without them.
I never met some guy who would be there for me like my friends. Maybe that's why I believe in friendships then relationships.
I feel happy today. Just a call from Andrew early morning, and I'm smiling the whole day.
Story behind? Words dun show anything. Action does.
calwen @ 11:53 AM