Saturday, July 08, 2006 ♥
Have you ever felt your life is just unexpected? Have you ever wonder how amazing things could turn out and are causes by unexpected reaction?
I just think that life is just full of mysteries. Is like a box of chocolates. You dunno wat flavor it is until you taste it. It's the same. Life isn't life if I'm not going through everything I'm experiencing now. Sometimes, when happy, you can find ur life so beautiful, so amazing. When you're sad, you just can't think of anything happy to cheer yourself up unless you run away. The saddess seems, like a thundercloud inside of u.
Have you sometimes wonder, you have many friends, but feel so lonely? Feel as though, sometimes, you just wanna be alone, not being anti social, just give sometime to yourself to be alone? Sometimes when you're happy, or even sad, have you had anyone you want to immediatey say to? To share without having afraid people who judge you?
I'm confident to say I have best friends out there who are willing to hear me laugh, hear me cry. But then, sometimes, I dunno why I have this barrier that prevent me from doing so.
Is this wat we call independant? Able to cheer oneself up without anyone's help?
Then I must say, being independent is lonely. And lonely people get depressed easily. LOL.
At whatever feeling you're feeling now, please be assured that I'm always there. To all my friends. out there.
I'm naive. I cannot deny that. My friends around me have been telling me that ever since they are my friends. lol. it'll be great if I can continue to stay naive, but to have someone protecting me. Haha. Instead of wanting me to change myself. It's hurting if people dun understand what you believe in. Dun you think so?
Weeee.
Just some thoughts out of nowhere.
Hmmm. Work was alright, after work went to the NDP reharsal. It's been a while since I sang the national day athem. Really very long ago. 2 years? Think more then two years, since most of the time I dun sing one. Wahaha. And the fireworks. Is beautiful. I catch fireworks most of the time in Cathay for the past 2 years due to the fact I always work during ND. And we would often scream everyone to take a look. Memories.
But up and personal fireworks, I watched it with KaiLun. 2004, 31 Dec, he cycled me to the johor reservior there, then unexpectedly, they let fireworks up. Really unexpected that Malaysia would actually set fireworks. It was a very nice sight.
It's been really long and I've never had the same feeling ever. Dun be mistaken, I've moved on, it's just, no one really ever let me had that same kind of feelings. I'll just wait patiently. Wahaha. Funny.
Shaman King is indead getting boring. Feel like wanna buy more comics. Argh. Need to control myself. I need to save and buy other stuff too.
Thanks to Melvin and PeiYi. lol. It kinda assure me that people still care. =D hmmmm.
Chalet anyone? During Sept holidays? I wanna have a break. But then, seems like my work place a bit on tight human resources lately. ChooiLeng was transferred without any replacement. And Siti is gonna go back study. Kit wants to quit. I dunno what I'm gonna do. Feel like wanna change my job soon too. =X
I stubbornly refused to eat these days. Only eat when my mum cook at home. And everytime I pray she cook food that I like. -.-"
Okie, I'm talking nonesense. Time for bed soon. Take care my friends. I love you all. =)
calwen @ 11:23 PM