I'm seriously worn out. Had a very fruitful yet tiring day.

Woke up seriously early to get my hair rebonded. It looks kinda flat, which it's suppose to, but I just not used to the feeling la. Coz my hair normally is very pong one wat. Now flat like feel a bit naked on my head like that. LOL. The shop seriously open 9am just for me ne. Touched. Wahaha. Oh ya, wanna blog about this Indian what served me at AMK S11. I think some Indians are really just plain racist. I was there first ne, but he like choose to serve all other customers that are indians first before serving me and JingSi last. Stupid ne. I'm not saying all Indians are like that. But seriously, some are just ruining the race reputation lor. Angry le.

Anyway, my hair was done faster then JingSi. We both like not used to our new hair style. Think we need time to get used to it lor. =
Was 6 mins late for work. Sian. Working is becoming more and more sian. The only enjoyable thing is that I love laughing nonsense with ShiKin. Today, I just merely moved my ears, and she was sooooooooo amazed coz she never seen anyone moved their own ears. And she keep laughing at me lor. I laughed too coz it's funny that one never seen a ear move. I mean, everyone has right? LOL. It's just so funny.

Oh ya. I would just wanna announce.

I HAVE BOUGHT MY LONG WAITED N71!!!!!!!!!!

And I'm sooooooooooooooo proud of it!

But it also means that I'm seriously broke right now. T.T Oh well. I hope my payday just comes asap! I need to buy protector for my handphone!! But eh, seriously la, my phone look like fake phone ne. Ask me show you when it's ready to "show it's face" Muahahaha. I gonna buy screen protector and casing and handphone pouch ne. I dunno why I so siao about this phone. Maybe I used the lousy samsung for too long that I really desperate to change phone liao. T.T No boyfriend to teng, so teng my handphone lor. Can kill my loneliness ne.

I didn't have time to maple this weekend. Too busy. Sigh.

Alright. I gonna need to sleep soon. I'll see ya guys soon!


Oh ya, forgot to inform you guys that I've been writing another blog.

http://o-four.blogspot.com/

Free visit wat me, JingSi, Robin and YaoWei are writing.

I had Jess visiting me today. It was a surprise actually. She did mention meeting up today, but I got work ma, but didn't really expect her to come down and visit. I'm pretty sure she's alright. All pretty grown up le. Just take things as it flows ba. I found many shocking news though, seems like this time round, I'm the last one to know everything. I think I'm suppose to feel sad, but I guess it doesn't matter. No use forcing people to tell me anything, they will tell me if they want too. Thanks Jess for visiting. It kinda make my day. We're all gonna be alright. Take care.


Eve (NU ER!) ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Though I cannot be the first to wish you, I decided to dedicate one entire entry for my NU ER!!!

You ar, dun be so timid, 18 liao, time to be brave a bit. Study more. Dun keep mapling ar! =X K k, dun nag le. Best wishes to you wor. Hope you can level in maple asap! Hehe. Good grades for ur subjects! And hope your father can give you a bit more freedom.

23 July we went to celebrate Eve's birthday. Hehe. We went Seoul Garden. Had a feast. Nice. Hehe.














We took neoprints. But hor, JINGSI CHOOSE THE WRONG FORMAT!! She printed out ONE big neoprint and the print are super small! And the big neoprint is her design lor! T.T Why never choose the one with the Happy Birthday that I do de?! Sob. Anyway, the one above is the one she decorated de. Weee~














Nice~ JingSi had sai on her head. =X














Kawaii ne! Me and JingSi sleeping in the bubble. Hehe.














MRT background ne. Hahaha. This is the one with Happy Birthday. NICE RIGHT?! WHY NEVER CHOOSE THIS AS MAIN PICTURE.














Weee!














Friends Forever wor. =X


I kinda love my blog skin. Will be settling with this til I see another nice one. Haha. Robin say I change blogskin like change underwear. Wat the hell. Underwear I change everyday one ne. Skin I change every 2 weeks le. T.T Like that say me. lol. Oh ya, if everything goes well, gonna rebond my hair on Sunday. Broke sia. lol.

But I plan my financial scheme liao. =X After my handphone and rebonding, I still have money left for some enjoyment. Actually I quite sick of working le. I wanna concenrate on enjoying my life le. I wanna hang out with my friends. Every weekend working is just saddening le. lol. I wanna go K. T.T Me and YaoWei gian le, but hor, JS like coz wanna save money dun wanna go, then Robin also dun want like that. T.T No JingSi a bit funny le, thinking if got PeiYi, me and JingSi would be great. Hehe. The guys anyone also can go la. But the mike will belong to the girls man! Hooo~

K la, let the guys sing with us also can. I very sharing de. =X LOL.

I today very high ne. Like, not worrying about anything, not really thinking about sad stuff. I think it's coz of Andrew's call in the morning just brighten my day. *smiles*

Tomorrow have to wake up early go down Orchard to take photos sia. T.T Then have to rot til 2pm before I start working. Sigh. Oh well.

I WANNA BUY MY PHONE SOON!

Hehe. I love my friends!


I've basically finished my work already. Left 4 textures that I need to take when I go down to Orchard tomorrow. I'll leave the remaining for Monday ba. Wanna slack todya. Feel like sleepy however, been lacking for sleep for a few days. I didn't get to level in maple yesterday coz this PRIMARY SCHOOL KID ask me maths problem sums. And I didn't wanna reject her so i helped her solve. T.T Waste my time le. I even died once, and it's saddening. Hai. wanna block her liao. Sian. Then yesterday waste my time on Maple lo. Good news is that my brother gave me a Maple card. I love my brother!!! He sometimes very good sometimes very bad de. =X I still love my family nevertheless la.

Weird. When I was young, I used to hate my family a lot. I come from a complicated background, and money seems to be most of our problems, but when I grow older, no matter wat the problems are, I still appreciate them somehow. From youn, til now. How much I've changed. We never know wat will happen in the future I guess. Everything is so unpredictable. I just need to learn how to appreciate things that I have now.

Andrew (Cathay de) made my day. He called and we chatted on the phone. It feels good if people remembered you and bother making a call. I'm rather touched. I miss Andrew lots. I miss those times when I'm in Cathay with sincere friends around. But issit good if friends work together? I not sure. It's like, working together comfirm will got conflicts. It still scare me how alone I am when I'm condamned by them. I haven't forgotten them that's for sure, I miss them everyday, but I guess we all are moving on with life. We're all growing up. Not very good if we always rely on the same person all the time. She'll be tired, so will I. Talking to Andrew makes me think of all the things I've been through in Cathay. All the friends I've made. Are they, for real? Do they really care about me? Thinking so much, but sometimes it's good to reflect what I'm doing. Like all my close friends know, I just wanna be happy. I hate complications, and I dun wanna make life difficult for anyone. I just wanna see people sincerely happy, not put a cover. It seems so fake, if I'm really ur good friend you would trust me and remove ur cover. Just some thoughts about friendship. I'm beginning to believe that nothing last forever. It's time that I grow up and stop being naive as well le. I will only treasure friends who treasure me. Daniel called today to ask me for dinner. Simple things. Simple things that would just make me smile. Not call me and ask for help, or whether you're feeling lonely etc. Call and chat, ask how I'm doing, wanna have dinner, it would totally make my day. It would make anyone's day.

I love my friends who understand and care for me. Those times when I feel so down, when I feel like killing myself, they were there to cry with me, to laugh with me when I'm happy, to share. I dunno wat I'll do without them.

I never met some guy who would be there for me like my friends. Maybe that's why I believe in friendships then relationships.

I feel happy today. Just a call from Andrew early morning, and I'm smiling the whole day.

Story behind? Words dun show anything. Action does.


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i just hate complicated people who are out there to make my life miserable. I HATE YOU


LOL. Left 10 mins to blog in ST before I fly home sweet home! Weee! TIme flies when you're really extremely busy man. Can't wait to go home and Maple. XD

Well, I was listening to Lian Ren Wei Man just now and dunno why got this stab in the heart. lol. I tot about Eve too. I just miss the past. lol. I wonder why. I used to be so upset, yet, I'm missing it. Wahaha. I'm probably crazy. But thinking how high we are at KTV in the past, really makes me feel heavy hearted? I also not sure about these feelings. Seems a bit confusing. I guess I just miss them. Miss those people who I often see in my life. Everything seems so different now. It's like I'm moving on yet, regreting that we can't really move on together. We live different lifes. I seem so small to them, like nothing lor. LOL. I also dunno wat I'm crapping la. zZzzZ

Tristan is flying for tomorrow. Which makes me think when will be my turn to fly to somewhere. I remember my feelings when I left Singapore for ShangHai. So exciting, so happy, able to relax and not think about life for a while. Seems so happy. I wanna travel again. Really do.

Rather emo today. But not really sad la. I'm happy, but yet, seems like something is missing.

I guess everyone has this kind of feelings now and then. It's good to reflect on myself once in a while.


I have a lot of things to do man. 1 day 24 hours really not enough lor. So much things to do. SO much things not completed. Sigh.

Tomorrow back to ST le. I wanna chiong my work lor. Really cannot take it to see so many things left undone.

Other then ST I also got other many stuff left undone lor. I gonna die le. Someone help me. I really need to spend some time with people who I can feel comfortable with lor. People like Chun. Like SuPing. Like Amanda. Sigh. People who I dun have to hide anything.

I'm actually fortunate to have friends like that. Some people dun even have a friend that they can remove their mask too. But some are luckier. They have their life partner. lol.

Sick okie le, though still coughing, but hor, after sick finish, must chiong work le. I really cannot wait til my holidays come lor. Got so many things I wanna do. sigh.

at times like this i really hate my life.


Haha. Looking through the photos sure bring back some memories. I can't help but smile when I think of them. Some memories, go le can never come back, but Cathay, it's really a choice for me. =) Maybe, right now, I just dun wanna think about it. Boy message me in friendster a few days back. I miss him a lot. Really miss those times when he save those cookies at the mini bar for me. And Metta too. I just miss the cookies back there.

I miss all of the people there too. *smiling to myself again*

Well, it's late. Just wanna jot down some of my feelings and etc. I calculated my money just now. I'm not able to spend anything this month again. lol. Actually, I just wasted the 50 bucks on the doctor. And I returned Irddy 175 bucks. Which makes me poor again. I have to control my urge to buy a new phone til end of this month when my friend pay me for my phone. How I wish Chinese New Year is drawing near then got ang bao take. =X

I have a few wants on my "to buy" list. Haha. But then, I should think too much already. Coz I really no mood to work anymore, and which will lead me to being broke once again.

I thinking of buying new clothes, new ps2 games, maple card, new sets of comics, etc. But then, think I shall just forget about it. Haha. Hmmm. Anyone wanna adopt me? Haha. Adopt me have to make me happy, which includes buying everything above. Wahahaha.

I'm just day dreaming. LOL.

I leveled again in Maple. Standing a proud Cleric at the level 43. It's like I'm leveling once every day. Lol. Reason coz I sick got MC then can play more. If not I think I also no time play one. But better when working in Cathay. In cathay I really no life. Haha. Full commitment towards Cathay please. LOL.

The medicine I took is making me feel drowsy. I guess I'll just stop here and go bed. Tomorrow have work. And I'm heading out early coz gonna meet Eve and JingSi to celebrate Eve's birthday. I didn't buy anything for her. I thinking tml go out then bring her around and shop lor. See how.

Alright. Bed time. Seeya


I didn't go work again. Haha. I cough until I wanna die like that lor, then Mel and Ezul ask me dun go work stay home rest. I got a lot of things to chiong, that's why I hesitated. But then, I really cough I wanna die le. Wat everybody say is correct la, I sick no mood to work also go work no use.

Wake up, wake for the postman to deliver my 1GB mini SD card for my future phone. XD Hahaha. I haven't buy phone but bought the SD card liao. I thinking wanna buy plastic cover and screen protecter for my phone or not. Haha. Siao liao.

Then after that went triple 8 to see the doc. OMFG! Cost about 40 plus neh! SO MUCH!! Heart attack lor. Like another knief stabbed into my heart like that. Same pain when I have to fork out 175 bucks to the ps2. Sigh. But the ps2 stab is much more pain la.

After that went straight to CWP to repair my phone. Not really repair la, sent it for servicing. Weee! My phone can be sold liao. Tml then go back CWP and collect.

After that went home a while to Maple. Kinda play along with PeiYi lor. Hmmm, then went out again to CWP for Sakae!

I tot I'll be very sian le. But I had fun! LOL. I sat with Robin, his gf and JingSi, and it's extremely fun lor. Chatted non stop. Maybe it's just me having fun? LOL. Robin's gf very funny de leh. Like to mix food. She created a dish out of wasabe, soya sauce, green tea leaves, lemon and some vege. It looks rather nice actually. Haha. We crapped, talked. The other table, Melvin, Irddy, YW and Ezul sound like they are having fun too. Keep laughing non stop. Hmmm, I'm rather glad that Melvin started to talk to Irddy as well. They originally dun talk de. haha. Kinda worried la. And I'm rather happy that I've met Robin's gf as well. XD

I'm MC for two days. Hehe. Must rest wor. Wahaha.

K la. Thanks to Irddy who sent me home! I go maple le. XD


XD

So much for a "smashing" entry come back. I sound the same everyday. Haha.

Well, decided to blog first before I maple. I realised everytime after I maple I just dun really have the mood to blog anymore. lol. Today is one of the most fantastic day I ever had so far. In a long time.

I'm surprised how everytime a chapter of my life ends, I can just smile and numb myself from the feelings. I guess it happens in life. You gotta move on. I'm rather proud of myself. Coz I'm finally able to talk about it to Melvin. And not feeling extremely emo. It's like, it's over. I know and finally accepted it. I guess I'm happy that I never told anyone about this. At least, I can save my pride. =) It's an achievement. I'm just happy for myself.

I feel like myself today. Like the old me coming back. Crapping. Laughing. Moving on. XD

Yup, it's comfirmed that our pay came in. I need to return Irddy his money like now. But I wanna wait for him to reply me on MSN. Then I make the transfer. Money is a sensitive issue le. Mai siao siao. Didn't join the gang for pool. I just dun like going anywhere with formal clothes. But I went dinner with Mel. Go see phones. XD I can afford to buy le!! So happy neh! Hahaha. Wanna buy Ouran High comic. Couldn't find Full Moon at cwp comics connection. Sad.

K la. I no mood to talk further. LOL. Hope everyone's having a nice day. XD


I have 4 close friends confiding me in problems

who can I confide to then?


OMG. Blogger take a long time to load. It was loading since 11pm, and now it's 11.21 already! OMG!!

I managed to finish my Wheelock Place today. Quite proud of it. Tomorrow would be texturing. Oh well. I dun think I'm able to finish it by this week but can try la. Work is as boring as usual. I cannot stand IAP anymore le. I just want it to finish and enjoy my holidays. OMG.

I just checked my bank account and I was shocked. How come so fast ST gave us 500 bucks already? It's not even the end of the month le? if like that means I get to return irddy the money, and buy my HP at the same time liao. Weee! Irddy! Give me a few days to comfirm whether the amount is really that amount k? If it is I'll transfer the money asap back to you! Haha.

Oh my 1GB mini SD card is here. In a form of a paper. -.-" Need to go post office to collect. I no time, so should be asking them to send it over on Friday. HOPEFULLY I can get it by Friday!! T.T I wanna ask Kit to help me transfer KTVs inside. So my new phone got KTVs to watch. Steady le. Can save money, no need to go Kbox. XD

I think at work I'm a bit attitude la. Cannot really take it when people shoot me these days. Temper damn hot. Coz sick. Sorry. I try to get well soon and back to my normal self k? I miss the old Wendy. LOL. The one who's way before every shit thing happens. During the beginnings of FYPJ. So fun. Sigh.

Hmmm. I gtg. LOL. Nothing much to blog le. I miss everyone! I love all my friends!! Muacks!!


Alright. It's late. But I still decided to blog anyway. =D

I'm a proud Cleric at a level 40! My brother will be proud of me. Haha. Well, I get to level with Daniel too. Omg! I realised I miss him hell lot! Never mind. I'll be meeting him along with Janna and PeiFen for PartyWorld. First time going there le. Hmmm. Wonder if got the songs I wanna sing ma. Quite sad not going with JingSi la, coz most of my duets I sing with her de. Janna always sings new songs. Then I left out. T.T Then PeiFen. Erm. I hardly sing with her. T.T Nvm. I long time never k le. Go enjoy myself even though my voice cannot make it coz got serious cough! Hmmm, anyway, Maple is fun. =D

Oh ya, today is another trip down to town. I was along with Melvin and PeiYu. Today quite sian lor, probably coz too many people and have to wait too much. I dun mind waiting, but then, give me something to do ar. T.T

Hmmm, other then that, my day has been great. I not sure why I so high. Hehe. I probably find a light through my darkness. Though there's still some darkness behind, I guess I just need to overcome it lor. But then, need time la. Hehe. I'm just concenrating on other things.

I get to see Metta today! And Phyllis! Haha. Today drop by cine and eat. Actually, when eating, my heart secretly wish that I could go up and visit people, but I ps, coz later the 4 guys have to wait for me. But then, in the end, I just suggested, and they agreed lor, and I practically screamed when I see Phyllis. Haha. Miss her. And when she told me Metta working box, I also dunno why I so excited. I run all the way up to find her. I miss Cathay. Really miss the freaking place. My heart tells me to go back. My brain tells me to finish my education first. If I go back Cathay. I might not have time for my poly friends le. Sigh. Not like I have a choice. Going back means I have to face people. People that I've been running away from.

I've been running away from a lot of people. I've been running away a lot in my life. LOL. Maybe I should just need to sit down and think about wat I'm gonna do next. Ya. I just need to do that. Rearrange the piorities in my life. Ya. Time to wake up and be truely happy. =D

A lot of things upcoming this week and next! Weee! I hope nothing goes wrong with my schedule. Hmmm. But first and foremost, need to take control of my emotions somehow.

Alright. Sleep time. Hehe.


Rawbean: "this is the 3rd time you reformat your com since i know you le"

YES!! I reformated my computer. AGAIN. I almost cried sia yesterday. I wanna sleep, sick, yet, I wanna have my com reformated and stable a bit before I go sleep. So there I was, until 3am in the morning, reformatting....

But then. now it's free from everything. Clean. So nice. Weee! I hope I will at least tahan for 6 months before I need to reformat again lor. Everytime reformat very sian one le. -.-

Oh well, I heard Pirates of the Carribean is nice. LOL. Irddy lend me the DVD but I never seem to have the time to watch it. On Wednesday? Speaking of Irddy. I saw him today when I went back to school for lunch. He seems like a bit weird. T.T Hope he's feeling okay.

Melvin: "It's time for forget and move on."

I seriously absorbed the entire sentence inside my god damn heart. For a moment I feel like crying all over again. But like I said, I'm not gonna cry again. LOL. But I guess it is true. Time to forget and move on. Hehe. I cannot swear that I wouldn't be emo these days. I'm sick, and when I'm sick, I tend to be emo. Coz no one like in the past can take care of me ma. =X lol. But then, knowing I have a lot of friends who cared and asked me to get better is great. Thanks to those who cared.

I'm still sick. Still need some time to recover myself. From everything.

Weee! Happy birthday Metta. U know that I love you. Though I may not show it. But you know right? Hugs. Happy 19th birthday. Stay happy and may all ur dreams come true!

Well, back for more soon!


Okie. I'm just here to blog a bit.

I'm sorry for not really blogging. Been really down with fever plus cough plus sore throat plus flu. And My fever like siao one. Sometimes cold sometimes high. So ya, not really in the mood to blog. Didn't really have enough rest as well.

I've been missing out a lot lately. Having some time alone with myself and my family. it's been great. I really enjoyed my mum's company. It's like, I miss her so much. I hardly have time for Lassie as well. I miss my doggie man. And my poor brother got a fever that's 39.8. It's like super high. Hahaha.

Oh well. A lot of tots been going through my mind. So now also still not a right time to blog. Wait til I fully recover then I come back with a SMASHING entry. LOL.

Back to work!


My fever came back. 37.7 degrees this time. I feel like dying.

Sigh.


Stumble across this song, in Alfian's blog. Mind you, though we're so far apart, but then, I still read his blog okie. The song, is so nice. Can imagine wat Alfian is thinking now. Haha

Ashley Parker Angels

"Let You Go"

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time and you know it
Don't you know
Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know
It's not like I haven't tried over and over again
Stupid fights, wrong or right
Goodbye

[Chorus:]
I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
Know I don't wanna
But I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmerciful
It took me down
Too little and too late
See now I know your kind
You fake it easy just to please me
Don't you know
It's not like we haven't tried over and over again
Sleepless nights, wrong or right
Goodbye

[Chorus]

I gotta let you go
It's you
There's nothing I can do

[Chorus]


Dun see a point when I'm always the one who kena shit comments. People do wat I'm doing as well. Dun dun say her you come and say me. Fuck you.


Lol. Words cannot describe what I'm feeling now. It's like actually, a dream come true. Seriously, one step fulfilling ur dream feels great. It's like I'm finally working towards it now.

I'M TAKING MY FIRST EVER DRIVING LESSON ON THE 7TH OF AUGEST!

Weee! Thanks to ShanYun who intro Tony to me. I can actually save money from private le. LOL. Thanks thanks. weee! So happy!!

I'm meeting Amanda, YiChun and SuPing tomorrow! For Pirates of the Carribean!! Wee! It's been a while since I last meet up with my best friends. Miss them a lot.

Weee! I leveled in Maple.

Feeling bored right now. I guess I'll just go and sleep. Got a deadline to rush tomorrow. Wish me luck


Weee! Today's 12 July 2006!! Soon, I'll have my Bods pay!! Weee! So happy!!

my fever subsided, haha. Thanks to JingSi, my daughter (Eve), Adeline, ShanYun, Melvin, Ezul, Irddy, Robin for wishing me to get better, or at least notice that I'm sick.

NO THANKS TO DUMB YAOWEI WHO DIDN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING!

I slept so much man. From 11pm yesterday to 12pm today. It's feels good~~ Weee! So nice. It's been a while since I rest so long le.

After I woke up, it's online all the way. Nothing to do except chat. It's kinda nice to spend some quality time resting at home, with no one disturbing. I used to hang out at the airport alone. That place is best! Watch planes fly, etc, that place is best to let ur thoughts run through your head and enjoy the peaceful atmosphere. Best.

Oh well. I just another thought. Haha. I can't wait for IAP to end.

Oh ya, ShanYun say she gonna intro her instructor to me le. Weee! Means I could save a bit of money from driving le. Who knows?

Alright. Time for bath. Seeya!


Hi there.

Sorry for not posting much these days. I'm down with fever. Need to go rest again coz I can feel a bit of headache coming up.

Nothing much to update the past days as I've been sick la.

Well, I finally forced myself to skip work and go see doctor. Kinda worried about work coz I have stuff that I have not done yet. Doctor gave me MC for today and tomorrow. I scared if tml I dun go, I cannot catch up, but then, if I go, they will sure say I waste that 2 days mc. Hai. Docter ask me to rest more. Oh well. I go polyclinic at 9.15, see doctor all the way until 2pm in the afternoon le. Like damn shit la. I slept on my mum's shoulders coz I'm feeling very weak, and I suddenly feel a sense of appreciation that she's there beside me.

We talked a lot today, ever since I chiong work and study, I never really had the chance to sit down and spend time with my family, though stupid quarrels happened now and then, she's still my mum and my friend. She even gave me advice on relationships, "It's better if someone loves you rather then you love them." Wow. I didn't know she's so practical. Sigh. I wonder why I'm not? Sian. I know it's time for me to grow up and think, but then... I dunno what I'm thinking sometimes. It confuses me a lot.

I guess I better get some rest! Anyone who read this dun mind sms me tell me to get better? Nice if once in a while people do show they care la. XD Haha. Actually if I dun say, you guys also must take initative to sms me de ma!! FRIENDS LE!!

I need to find time to go buy present liao. Hai. Metta's birthday coming!! They like never inform me of anything? So maybe I'll just buy a present for her lor. If no one date her then maybe thinking wanna eat dinner together ma. But she very busy, so many friends to entertain, better not disturb her plans la.

I bought purple hair dye. WOOTS.


Just a random post.

Things that money can solve.

my $178 bucks that I owe Irddy. *cries*
my rebonding with JS.
my car licence. (congrates to ShanYun who passed recently!)
a wacom tablet.
a N71.
more clothes and pants. (running out of things to wear to school)
a decent bag that I can use for at least 6 months.
Comics.

Boohoohoo. Why my friends on my birthday dun wanna give me all these? sob.


Have you ever felt your life is just unexpected? Have you ever wonder how amazing things could turn out and are causes by unexpected reaction?

I just think that life is just full of mysteries. Is like a box of chocolates. You dunno wat flavor it is until you taste it. It's the same. Life isn't life if I'm not going through everything I'm experiencing now. Sometimes, when happy, you can find ur life so beautiful, so amazing. When you're sad, you just can't think of anything happy to cheer yourself up unless you run away. The saddess seems, like a thundercloud inside of u.

Have you sometimes wonder, you have many friends, but feel so lonely? Feel as though, sometimes, you just wanna be alone, not being anti social, just give sometime to yourself to be alone? Sometimes when you're happy, or even sad, have you had anyone you want to immediatey say to? To share without having afraid people who judge you?

I'm confident to say I have best friends out there who are willing to hear me laugh, hear me cry. But then, sometimes, I dunno why I have this barrier that prevent me from doing so.

Is this wat we call independant? Able to cheer oneself up without anyone's help?

Then I must say, being independent is lonely. And lonely people get depressed easily. LOL.

At whatever feeling you're feeling now, please be assured that I'm always there. To all my friends. out there.

I'm naive. I cannot deny that. My friends around me have been telling me that ever since they are my friends. lol. it'll be great if I can continue to stay naive, but to have someone protecting me. Haha. Instead of wanting me to change myself. It's hurting if people dun understand what you believe in. Dun you think so?

Weeee.

Just some thoughts out of nowhere.

Hmmm. Work was alright, after work went to the NDP reharsal. It's been a while since I sang the national day athem. Really very long ago. 2 years? Think more then two years, since most of the time I dun sing one. Wahaha. And the fireworks. Is beautiful. I catch fireworks most of the time in Cathay for the past 2 years due to the fact I always work during ND. And we would often scream everyone to take a look. Memories.

But up and personal fireworks, I watched it with KaiLun. 2004, 31 Dec, he cycled me to the johor reservior there, then unexpectedly, they let fireworks up. Really unexpected that Malaysia would actually set fireworks. It was a very nice sight.

It's been really long and I've never had the same feeling ever. Dun be mistaken, I've moved on, it's just, no one really ever let me had that same kind of feelings. I'll just wait patiently. Wahaha. Funny.

Shaman King is indead getting boring. Feel like wanna buy more comics. Argh. Need to control myself. I need to save and buy other stuff too.

Thanks to Melvin and PeiYi. lol. It kinda assure me that people still care. =D hmmmm.

Chalet anyone? During Sept holidays? I wanna have a break. But then, seems like my work place a bit on tight human resources lately. ChooiLeng was transferred without any replacement. And Siti is gonna go back study. Kit wants to quit. I dunno what I'm gonna do. Feel like wanna change my job soon too. =X

I stubbornly refused to eat these days. Only eat when my mum cook at home. And everytime I pray she cook food that I like. -.-"

Okie, I'm talking nonesense. Time for bed soon. Take care my friends. I love you all. =)


Hi there. I'm actually super tired right now. But then, I wanna blog. I wanted to blog in the office just now, but they dun allow blogger to upload photos and post videos. So here I am.

Talk about my day first. Everything is as usual. Except maybe, YaoWei buy rice for me lor. No comments on that coz he read my blog. -.-" Everything I say will put me in grave danger of more shootings. But I appreciate it la. Sometimes find him no brains de. Hai. Well, also I agreed to work today. So i have to rush down to work. Super tired. I dunno why my eyes keep closing. It's like, I'm not really tired coz I'm not really yawning, but my eyes like naturally close and I wanna doze off like that lor. Maybe I'm really dying. Hahaha.

I always wonder what will happen if I die? But I have so many things left to accomplish. I guess my dreams always get me going.

Hopefully I'm able to use photo shop next week. I need to texture the props and up everything soon.

Okie, watching NDP tomorrow with JingSi, PeiYi and Melvin. YaoWei maybe joining. Oh well.

I wish someone would just go and die. Hai.

Alright. Now on a general side. I've recently bought comics to Absolute Boyfriend, and it's a decent story to read. You can skip this junk if you're not interested.








As you can see, the graphics the author draw is fantastic. The guys, are like OMG. It's like, the ultimate dream guy for every girls lor. And yes man, I wish I'm the female lead of the book. The guys are like soooooo loyal and sweet to her. LOL. Okie okie. Get a grip Wendy. Ahem. Absolute Boyfriend is actually, a genetic switch of Chobits. The lead girl, wishes for a boyfriend but her luck seem to be very down with guys. One day, she met this weird saleperson, and helped him out. In return, he say he wanted to give her one thing that she want, and as you can guess, a boyfriend. The salesperson smiled and gave her a name card, with a website on it, saying she can get a boyfriend there. She of coz, have no belief in that, however, curious, and when to the webbie. The guys there are gorgrous. You can customise their characteristics, and she just playfully added a whole lot of them. Which amount up to 1 million yen. She get to use him free trail for 3 days, and she accidentally forgot to return the boyfriend, and the sales person forced her to buy. She had no such money, so they had a bargain, to let the Boyfriend learn as much as girls emotions as possible. Many things happen, including many love triangles. Her childhood friend is actually in love with her but dare not confess! The Boyfriend, is wat every girl dream to have, loyal, faithful, smart, caring, thoughful, know how to cook, and so many more. Though the story can get a bit far fetched, it's a nice story nevertheless.

Alright. Haha. That's all for the review! I'm going to sleep soon, it's gonna be another long weekend. Sigh. Maybe going KTV with my secondary school friends. Weee? Exshuasted.











A picture could say a thousand words. Serious

Woot. Her birthday (KJ aka Yu Jie Ru) got a lot of people come le. So envious. Haha. Wonder if my 21st birthday will be like that too? LOL. Reason why I dun like to celebrate is coz I scared very sian lor. Or I scared will be disappointing le. So never really had the chance to celebrate ba.

I have slack the entire day today? I feel like I deserve it le. After struggling so hard with the road.

Nothing to say in particular. I go maple le.


HOOO~

First of all. Sad news first. Met some problems and share with YaoWei. So then again, I dun wanna repeat. Just wanna tell you all I sad. LOL. But I'm fine le. Just the usual hurt feelings and stuff. I shouldn't think so much ya? Just divert my attention to other stuff.

Hmmm. I managed to go a bit of shopping today! I meet JingSi after work, and we went PS the Yahama there look around. She wanted to buy her horn mouth piece, and it cost like, 104 bucks. WAAA! I heart pain. But she like it la, I guess the people I know from band are all like that, so passionate about their instrument. WanXin, Amanda, PeiYi, and so many more. I look around for piano pieces, but then, realised they have very few of the ones I wanted in the past. Sad. Wanted to play some songs but they say no practise on the piano, somemore, I realised I forgotten most of the scores I played! My keyboard is just rotting at home. Oh ya, I get to sign their membership, coz JingSi bought something. Free le. Next time buy piano scores got discount le. Weee!

Alright, after that go buy formal pants. Went John Little. JingSi wear any bottom also nice le!! Sigh. I wear everything also like not nice. Wanna buy formal skirt, coz I sick of pants liao. My skin cannot take it. Hate formal wear lor. But nothing I tried suit me!! In the end, I sick of trying le. Lazy to try. Sigh. I HATE FORMAL CLOTHES!! PLEASE UNDERSTAND!! I bought nothing. Even when I go Far East shop I also bought nothing. JingSi managed to buy one pants. I tried the same one but it suck on me la. Sian.

I did managed to buy the whole series of Absolute Boyfriend. It's a freaking nice comic. I dun mind lending the comic to whoever wants to read them!! lol. Fruits Basket 20 also out le. And WITCH. Wahaha. Comics!! I wanna start Ouran High and Full Moon Wo Sagashite. Full Moon has 7 bks. Can afford. Ouran is still on going. Hmmm. Weee!

Had fun today! No more stress coz I FINALLY FINISHED MY DAMN ROAD!! Tomorrow will try exporting.

Hmmm. There's work tomrorow. I guess I'll seeya guys soon! Take care!


Weeee~

Saturday!! My Only Off Day For Like A Month?

First of formost. I owe everyone to have a chance to look at the lastest neoprint I have took!! Mind you, it's really long since I last took neoprint. Think very rare leh, coz everyone around me seems to say it's kiddish. JingSi say wanna take with me, I'll be waiting hor.










I think almost all the neoprints we decorated has something on their heads. Check it out.










Out In famous Weee! written by *ahem* myself. My infamous pose as well!! Look At Robin!! -.-"










Ohhh. Notice YaoWei is always at he left side of the photo. I dun understand why also. lol. Backgrounds done by Robin. I suck at doing backgrounds.











Ohhhh, I like this one!! The words are hard to read, but I actually wrote princess under myself and Gays under Robin And Yw! I like this! Ya, take note Yw is at the left again.











LOL. Everyone's faces are funny in this photo. LOL.











The only decent photo around. Wee~



Superman Personal Review by Wendy Hau.

Super man is a great movie. I'm really surprised how they managed to keep the old school stuff and not make it boring. I keep laughing through out the movie. Like the part where he's running and he's gonna tear his outer clothes apart, I'll like whisper to Ekin who's sitting beside me, "There there! The infamous tearing of clothes to reveal himself!" And the bullet through the eye. Kao, I told Melvin that I would laugh and I did! Weee. The effects are great, the sound effects kinda scare me a few times in the movie as well. I keep jumping man! Wat can I say, I'm naturally timid. Wee. It was kinda confusing in the beginning, however, everything fell into place soon enough. Superman is cute, and the lead actress is stunning. The storyline can get no better, it's just an overall recommanded movie. Well, the love bit is a bit overated though.

I had a fun time with JingSi yesterday. LOL. Not to mention YaoWei, Irddy, Melvin, and Ekin. It's been a while since I hang out with Ekin and I miss her!! Melvin was kinda emo yesterday, I hadn't had a chance to ask him why yet.

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I know I'm not suppose to say stupid things here. But I'm rather pissed at some stuff la. Sigh. Maybe after attachment then I'll complain here. Anyway, I couldn't finish my road as I planned to. A lot of problems. It's like, I have to do a new exact texture of that crossroad. I cannot zoom out and printscreen the whole road as it would have been very difficult for me to put in the details coz it's too small. So I zoom in and decided to print screen parts and join them together. Finished. But when I imported the texture in, give me a whole lot of new problems. Like the seperate texture doesn't join up rightly. Which means, I have to redo some parts of the texture. And oh, did I mention I forgot to save my max file yesterday? I close without saving the bloody thing, which also means I have to redo a bit of the texture. Whole day le. I didn't do anything else lor. I did Skype a bit. But I decided to concentrate instead. Still cannot finish. Saddening.

Oh I found a wallet today btw. Gonna return it to the interchange somehow when I got the time. poor thing le, it's a small kid and he's malaysian. Can you imgaine his panic? lol.

Oh ya, another once in a blue moon thing. YaoWei actually SINCERELY thank me today le. Touched sia! LOL. First Robin say He Love his Friends. Now YW say Thank You to me neh!! Must start collection liao. HOOO~













Gonna change my blogskin soon. I going maple first. Seeya!





Just change the skin again, but then, dun really like it lor. The previous one was too pinkie for my liking. This one is just too messy. Sigh. Hard to settle for a for long le. Hmmm.

As I promised. Photos. Weee!










I was one of the first to reach. Well, not really la. Janna, PeiFen, Daniel and Jeremy were there first. And we immediately went into a photo taking spree. That's Janna and PeiFen beside me. Me doing my infamous pose again. ROFL.










Another One of my infamous face. Weee! That's Daniel btw. He become shuai a bit liao lo. lol.












There! Birthday girl on the top left! She super high yesterday lo. But If I'm her I guess I would too. It's like a lot of her friends turn up and stuff. If I got birthday chalet dunno I will be as high as her ma? lol.

I didn't managed to take photos with Angeline, Metta, Jess, Dean, YiYong and Jeremy yesterday. Sigh. There's also a group photo le. Dunno KJ will upload ma? Weee!

Aiyah. Stupid Robin still haven't post the neoprints. Sian!!

Go prepare for tml le. Seeya!


There's a lot of things I wanna say. But I guess I said it all out to Robin already, so ya, I dun feel like repeating.

Wanna blog picutres today, but Robin couldn't get the neoprints scaned by today, so need to wait til tomorrow. Janna also didn't send me the photos, so everything tomorrow lor. Janna! If you read this, please send the photos to my email, wencas@gmail.com. Alrigatoh.

Eragon is a really nice book. Will give reviews once I finish it.

Some people just take me for granted. I think one day I must burst out. I dunno why others like got the right to burst out angry or wat but I dun. Why must i constantly think for them when they are actually hurting my feelings?

Oh ya, I enjoyed myself with YaoWei and Robin today at Orchard. Though it's nothing much, but then, it wasn't boring either. Weee! We had neoprints!! It's like a long time since I last took neoprints lor. OMG. I think the last time was at level 9 cineleisure. The one with SiewTing in it. lol.

Cathay just gives me too much memories. Until now, I cannot decide whether I join Cathay is a good or bad thing.

Need to pay my bills soon. Hmmm. KTV coming up too. Hmmmm. Superman. Hmmmm. Sigh. Money is just irritating sometimes.


It's not that I refused to blog yesterday. I did. My idiotic brother went to switch off the router after he finished playing his game and when I tried to publish my post it was GONE. Sigh. Guess this kind of shit happens every now and then.

My body seems like it went through a series of bulldozer over it. Yesterday NAPFA was expected, I actually failed 2 stations. Mind you, from the fact that I had a few golds in secondary school, yesterday's results was saddening. I failed my 2.4km run. It's like, the first time sia. Sad. But then, it's coz I didn't practise for a long time. Plus, I didn't really try my best, so, it's kinda expected.

We're supposed to collection the cert for failing for NAPFA yesterday, but when we came out of the shower the damn room is closed already. Wat the hell. So I have to go back next week to collect it. This is just a waste of time la.

After weeks of hard work, (mind you, it's really hard work) of no rest or off days. I finally get to off today! Thus, I decided to play Maple until 4am in the morning. I could go further in the past, but my eyes just keep closing at 4am. It's been a while since I last played til this late, and I managed to get a few maple items. Including my Maple Staff. Weee.

Thinking of changing my skin, again. =D Easier for everyone to read instead of clicking. Weee~

I'm meeting Robin and YaoWei later. It's a last min thing, actually, to think of it, I would rather stay at home and rest due to my poor and tired body, but then, I hardly get to hang out with them anymore, so ya, I'M ON! They're gonna cut their freaking hair, and play pool. LOL. I seriously dunno wat I'm going down for. Just to hang in town I guess.

Metta, Jess, Angeline and Phyllis went to Malaysia. I couldn't go, and they know it, that's why they didn't ask. LOL. Saddening that I couldn't go overseas. Oh well.

Anyway. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YU JIE RU!!! Or whom my friends are commonly known as KJ!!! 21st birthday le!! GROW UP AND TAKE CARE OF URSELF!!! DUN CLUB SO OFTEN ANYMORE!!! Lol. Well, u're not within my control, I'm not ur mum, but then, I do care about u la. We've come a long way. I LOVE YOU!!!

Name's Wendy (aka wencas)
Birthday falls on the 3rd April
I'm an Aries. Exact. Same. Personality.
Attached happily to Calvin Shing Jia Yong.
Well, that's all you need to know, right?



craves :
Ipod Nano ?
A red Nintendo DS Lite sweeetttt ;)
A Flat Screen TV
TV Cable
Constant Traveling with my one and only ^^
More shoes!
Drama Shows
Comics
ODM Watch got a puma one =D
A perfect wallet braun buffel wakakaka
Brazailian wax ouch
W890i Sony Ericsson
More clothes ^^










Affiliates
Andi
Arman ♥
KJ ♥
SiewTing ♥
Regina ♥
JingSi ♥
Gary Bro ♥
JunYing ♥
Jess ♥
JustFaith ♥
Metta ♥
Robin ♥
ShanYun ♥
Tracie ♥


Memories
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