Wednesday, June 28, 2006 ♥
lol.
Had a talk with Melvin yesterday. Yup. Been running. And running. Non-stop. But when can I run until? It's pretty obvious everything is different now. But I keep avoiding, keep thinking everything is alright. Hoping one day everything will pass. My naive thoughts again. No matter how much friends say me, I'm still back at square 1. Why. Why i cannot handle this kind of problem de. fark la. Everything else can handle except this. My previous life I must have let my partner down or something. Yesterday I finally got myself not to run and think. And think. And think. I think a lot. Reality just sucks. Can I just continue running? Running makes me happy. I just want it to pass. Why every single one of my r/s so drama de. I really never meant it to be drama. I just want to jian jian dan dan de guo re zi. I know very hard, need to grow up, but I just can't!! Under stress my brain cannot function le!! Can say I know I must grow stronger in my mentality, but I just dun want.
I wanna eat le. Cup noodles again. T.T
Hmmm, long time nv put pictures le leh. Thinking wanna put my modelling pictures that I've done for the week.
Reading Eragon now. Hmmm, kinda tough to read storybooks now le. Think the last time I read a book was Harry Potter le. The lastest one. Hmmm.
Lunch. Be back with more crap later
calwen @ 11:56 AM