Wednesday, June 07, 2006 ♥
Funny. My brother came into my room with a plastic bag and a roll of newspaper. "Should I kill the insect or should I save the insect that's flying around?" I look at the newspaper and the plastic bag. "Think u save it la." He then pass me the plastic bag. Ask me go save it sia. Wth. So hum. He scared he think I dare meh? I more hum then him lor. lol. And I heard a loud "Pia!" outside. Think he hit the insect already. Have a safe journey to heaven.
It's quite an eventful day. Me facing some emotional stuff that I really got to deal with. I think I cannot avoid it la. I must sit down and think of a plan what I must do about it. And I think I made up my mind. Thanks to Metta. Think I'm not gonna stay anymore. I think I should just let it go. Should have let it go so long ago. But then, my character is that kind cannot bear to see saddness. I hope I can be stronger. I wanna be the independant Wendy that I know before I met all these shit. Courage.
I worry tomorrow I might mood swing again.
I dun feel like I got the mood for anything. JingSi talk about K, I like no mood. Friends actually jio me go clubbing. But then, I rejected, but I dun mind go for a drink.
But then, I think I cried enough for these two months le. Maybe I shouldn't drink and try to be stronger. Coz not thinking is just childish.
Seems like there's so much going on around me. I'm sad. I have things not yet settle. Yet, I got so many friends who needs help. I can't just turn a blind eye. I miss my best friends. I wanna hang and K and watch and club and make a fool out of ourselves with them. Sure, sometimes i feel not appreciated by them, but I still love them coz that's what friends are for. Accepting each other though I have faults and stuff. They dun judge me.
Friends in poly are fun. But dun think they are experience enough to hear me being sad. all they think of is like their own problems and having fun. I wonder if they care about the friends around them? Maybe school work ya, coz their grades are affected too? I guess I'm just looking for friends that are true. No offence please.
I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm just tired. I wanna hug someone and just cry. It's really painful. My heart is like breaking into two and I dunno why. It just farking hurt so much.
Ever since that day. It seems like I hard to be happy anymore.
Today's 060606. Guess it's really a bad luck day for everyone. Everyone today like weird. Maybe it's just me.
I wanna change phone. Sigh. Cannot take it anymore.
calwen @ 7:34 PM