I am so so so so freaking high now! lol. I just reach home and my brother gave me 30 bucks!!! Although it's not much, but I can pay the debts of my friends, and I can go watch X Men and KTV on Thursday! I freaking happy can. LOL. Feel like suddenly all my troubles go away like that. Wahahaha.

Alright, I'm feeling very sulky these days partly coz I'm farking broke. Not normal broke le, is really wallet EMPTY that kind. Really a single 2 dollar note also dun have okie. lol. And it's really torturing coz I cannot go dinner with my friends and stuff like that. Dun even have money to eat cup noodles I tell u. Very cham lor. Hahaha. But today managed to survive coz YaoWei got buy nugget and wedges wor. I paiseh, but then, thanks also la. lol.

Reached sch at 8am sia. LOL. My record le! I never reach sch so damn early before. But early come is really very peaceful le. No one, so quiet. It's liek I can do work like that lor. lol.

Hmmm, went doby ghuat print again. LOL. Same shop. The boy there now recognise me le. Wahaha. I printed my bloody got damn poster 4 freaking times. 2 times smudge. 1 time pixelated. Wat the hell. Waste so much money. Owe so much as well. @!@$!@#$

You know wat? I think it's best if I just let it go. I've been holding inside for so long. And I feel really tired being sulky always and thinking too much. I miss the old times. When I didn't know it first. Things changed, and I'm holding on to it until I cannot find myself being happy with the person anymore. Which is so unfair to everyone around me. I think I just wanna ignore the fact, but I know I can't and it's driving me crazy. It's just time to say good bye.

I'm gonna miss the DETs man. Seriously. Very much.


And I have a bloody fucked up family whom sometimes I dunno if I'm more important of money more important.


Been through a lot these days. Been rather down lately. Think everyday I walk home also will think a lot. I dunno how to deal with it. Sometimes just wanna break down and cry but who the hell can help and understand right?

I'm freaking tired today. Just let me complain. I know you all are tired. But then, I dare said I have fun outside with Melvin and Ezul. The incident at the printing shop still crack me up. First time go printing ma, can you imagine we actually waited for like dunno how many hours coz the computer is cock up and stuff? Ya, I keep kping ar, I even asked the shop what can I do to help them coz I'm so bored of waiting. I have a high level of patience, but I cannot stand do nothing and wasting time hor. So I practically talk and cut stuff and crap and made a fool out of myself. We waited for Tristan to come and me and Ezul helped him to cut his stuff as well. We had to walk all the way to Peace Centre to eat, and I decided to help YaoWei and Ekin to tabao dinner coz I'm sure they haven't eat yet lor. The Lasi Lemak not fulling, but wat to do right? I owe quite a number of money le. Very sad. I no money to eat sia. I owe YaoWei, Ezul, Melvin money. I also dunno how much.

Melvin I probably owe $3.90 + $1.

I think Ekin owe Melvin $3.50 for the lasi lemak.

I owe YaoWei $4.20 - $3.50

Think that's about it.

Tml I still need money to print my stuff. I think I broke until I wanna cry le. I really very stress coz I no money for this week. I think I can forget about watching movie and going K le. Which I'm very sad about lor.

Tml have to go sch early.

i just dunno wat to do about my heartache


Basically, I'm quite panicking over the printing stuff. 3 more days to presentation and I didn't even print the stuff yet. And I'm feeling a bit worried now. Because I only left 10 bucks in my entire wallet. And I wonder how am I gonna survive next week. I need to print things, and I need money to go out with my friends next week. I cannot dun go coz it's sort of a farewell thingie. I wonder wat am I suppose to do.

Sigh. Work was alright. The same lor. I managed to buy formal wear already. So ya. Dun really have to worry wat to wear on Wednesday. Kinda nervous for that day as well.

Money!! Who can spare me MONEY!! Sob.

I also kena my working friends forced to watch 2 horror movies. Which is like shit lor. No money. And my Xmen I also no money to watch le. Die la.

Sigh so many problems. Sian

Sigh. Going off le. Seeya.


Say say say! LOL. You guys must really watch Hard Gay in youtube. It's freaking hilarious. Please go watch!





This one was the yahoo ad. He's kinda cute, and he's super duper funny. lol. I let my brother see and he's like laughing like hell.

Oh well. I think I lost my 170 bucks hard disk. Heart pain le. I even tried to went down to sch today to search for it. But school close and I didn't bring my card to access to the south gate. Sad!

Went Cathay for a visit. Haha. I feel more comfortable at The Cathay. Dunno why. Probably most of the people I dun really know? I dunno. Back at Cathay, I think I got too much history and I feel a bit paiseh to be spotted there. However, I do wish I'm able to say hi to Eve again. I do miss her. =) We're such good friends in the past anyway. Though she's always saying we're just working friends, well, she's just a good friend of mine la.

Hmmm, wanted to watch X Men but sold out sia. I know it's gonna be sold out, but then, a bit sad. Went Causeway find Shaiful, there also sold out. Ate dinner and went home.

Shawn committed sucide, and I dun even know a thing. I hope he's okie. He should be back tml. I need to ask him to pass me the money for Hard Gay toy.

Watching videos. Freaking funny some of them. haha. Youtube is like a tv for me man.

Oh well. I sold my Final Cut Pro book for 30 bucks. But then, I bought ear phones for like 23 bucks. lol. So in the end I only earn 7 bucks lor. Oh well. Better then nothing. =)

My hard disk. Sob.


My tummy hurts like hell. You know wat is hell is? It's like .... thousands of daggers stabbing ur tummy. Or someone trying to dig ur tummy out. I think it's call GASTRIC.

I hardly have any tummy problems unless it's the time of the month. I guess these days I skipped too much meals and etc.

But it's so painful that I almost cried can? Which will make it 2 times this week. I almost wanna let it out again. But I stopped in case I couldn't stop crying like last time.

Sigh.

But then, who cares? lol. Saddening.

Next week will be going out with my sch friends again. Dunno where, and dunno what. But I am looking forward to it no matter wat. No one accompany me watch X Men 3 le. Saddening as well. Sigh.

Didn't get to print today coz the others weren't ready. Which I'm quite pissed off la. But you know wat? Watever la. lol. At most just print on Monday only lor.

D/ling new game introduced by ShanYun, or rather, Keith. lol. But hopefully can finish it by a certain time la. d/ling a game for 9 hours is like a bit too much.

Wooo~ Going off. Dunno wat to do now. Perhaps maple a while. lol. Seeya!


Sigh. Super sian. Just spend some time blogging.

Actually, nothing to blog also. Haha. Just wanna talk some cock here. Well, internet is just down yesterday, and I fell asleep at 8pm. Woke up at 11pm coz my mum came back, fell asleep and woke up at 12am coz my brother say internet okie liao. Idiot. Went online a while kena cut off again. It's like wat the hell lor. Argh!!

Okie. Enough about the internet. Actually. I'm just worried that my maple's pet will go to waste la. Coz got limited number of days til the pet die wat. Sad. lol.

Printing later. Probably with Ezul and Melvin. Then coming back to sch til quite late. See how ba.

Oh my god. It's freaking boring.

FYPJ coming to an end. 4 freaking days. Sigh

It's still painful.


It's so busy.

Which is good. Keep my mind of things.

Still hurt when I think deeply into the situation. I can't believe I'm doing this but well. Just, cannot believe it.

I guess I need more time to recover.

I miss my friends! lol

Oh well. Attachment starting. I'm gonna miss FYPJ.

Managed to level one level in maple as well. Yea.

Gonna do my powerpoint now.


Let's start with something normal today. Played DDR on the computer the entire day. LOL. While the others played Puzzle Fighter. I guess they are enjoying it. I used to play when I was younger, but then, no matter how much I play that game I just suck. Big time. Learning from my brother also cannot make it. lol. So ya, I rather give up on that game. Haha. Play something that I'm more keen on improving.

Had cup noodles today. Along with JingSi and YaoWei...

I finished up my presentation materials too. And poster. Hopefully can approve and I can get on with life.

Attachment results out. I'm posted to ST. Singapore Technology, those kind need security card then can go in de. Something like Jess's IBM. Ya. There are 5 people going in, me, Melvin, YaoWei, Tristan, and HanLin. All of them are alright, in fact, I'm very happy with the group I'm in. Maybe coz got YaoWei and Melvin, though quite swey that I kena YaoWei again. lol. But on the brighter side, at least got two good friends around to talk cock with.

Stayed behind to do project. Talked with YaoWei and come to know somethings that I expected but still come as a shock to me. But then, maybe I'm just too naive. I believe as long as u go for it at least you've tried. Easier said then done. If it's so easy I would have done it. But I never had the courage to. Coz I'm a girl. wahaha. So I do hope guys have the courage to do the things that I could never do myself.

FYPJ is ending. I think me and YaoWei are the only ones feeling sad over this le. LOL. Everyone like dying for FYPJ to end. But I also looking forward to new changes ar. That's what life is suppose to be about anyway. Changes.

The room is cold today. lol.

I'm not feeling good today. I just did something that I haven't do for a freaking long time. I cried.

It's not like I said already anyone can help me like that.

So I cried alone. After finish crying I talked to Metta.

I just dunno what to say now.

I just hope tomorrow is a better day.

Feel so empty. Feel so silly. And I feel that I didn't change at all since last time. Always stupid.

It's tough being stupid too.

If only everything is just so simple.

But nothing's perfect. After crying, I'm just gonna have to deal with it.

Thanks my best friend. For being there.

I might never find the one.


I'm not like that. I'm just a simple girl who wanna have fun in this world. Someone to share my stuff with. Ya. Sigh.


Supposed to be sleeping now. But I dunno why i'm super hungry. Sigh. I super miss someone right now too. Dun assume. Might be you. lol. Oh my god. Gotta control myself. I mean, shouldn't let feelings get in the way of certain things on my mind. ya.

I feel like staying back in school these days. Just wanna spend some time with friends in school. I mean attachment is coming and it's like super sian lor. I rather have extension in school then to go out and work. Well, perhaps I gotta think of the money sake. Ya. And my liscense. Sigh.

Today marked my long break from work. I think I deserve it but then, having break means I have yet to spend more money. Arcade. KTV. Movies. Dinner. Lunch. Sigh. Why dun I just win some lucky draw and strike rich? It will end all my troubles. I still got a couple of stuff that I need to buy. Which means need more money. Sometimes I wish I could stop being naive and just get a rich boyfriend to support me. But then again, I'm not that kind. I'm just naive and stupid and I just can't grow up.

Maybe it'll be good if I have a boyfriend who loves me enough to give me the best out of him. And I have to love him as well ar. After so much, I still believe in it. Maybe I should just stop believing in it.

Speaking of the arcade, I hang out at Jubilee just now. I think it's been 2 to 3 weeks since I hang around there. And I went there I actually stepped on DDR! It will be good if the guys aren't around to laugh at us. Kinda ps when they came and video cam us lor. wth. Daytona as usual. Had fun. JS wore a skirt today! Actually it was sort of a challenge to JS by ShanYun. Too bad ShanYun didn't come today to see her wear skirt lor. YaoWei today like in pain like that. Guess his back hurting him very much. Irddy also a bit funny after meeting his buddy. Everything's a bit weird today. But then. I still had fun overall.

I really wanna watch X Men. Seems no one wanna watch with me. Sob.

Might be staying overnight in school. See how it goes. Have to go printing on Thursday liao.

I really wanna watch X Men. Sigh.

Been thinking a lot lately. Been angry for things that are very minor too. Probably coz I think too much. But then, I still love my friends. Hope they know I love them. You guys just know who you are k?

JunYing kinda told me there's X Men gala today. And Superman Gala coming up. I not sure how to react. I really miss those days. Wishing I could smile more and treasure those days I had once. I regretted being affected by minor feelings and words by others that made me unhappy at work. I should be happy there despite everything. Like Aida.

K. I like you. I miss you and you and you and you and you and you. I love school. I need money. I thinking of selling my handphone away and not get any handphone back in return. Just need cash.

I'm just frustrated coz I'm farking in need of money.


There's this would on my leg that has been there for ages. Didn't heal and it always itchy. God help me man.

Reading so many blogs make me realised that we'll never know wat lies in the future. It's kinda scary, sometimes, we fear of changes coz we dun know wat will happen when changes takes place, so we rather be the same and have the same things and lead the same life. But then, time waits for no man, soon, we'll have to experience changes, depends on how you approach it. I wonder what will I be doing in the future? Will I be doing wat I wanna do? Or will I become like my brother, to rot at home and enjoy life? I dunno. Will I able to have a boyfriend that I'm happy with? Or will I meet somemore hardships on the way? Who knows, maybe I would be back with my ex?

Come to think about it, I've been through so much, but once another relationship comes again, I not sure if I know how to handle. I'm like experienced but stupid.

I am stupid am I? I think I'm born stupid. Dunno why sometimes I cannot use my brains. But sometimes being naive is good. Dun have to worry about stuff that are not worth worrying about.

I dunno why I think a lot sometimes. Maybe because I think of you. Sometimes, thinking of u makes me laugh, happy, smile, but other times, I think of you and I feel loneliness. I miss you. Even though I just see you or watsoever, I still miss you. I wished that you will contact me when I'm bored, or have someone to contact to and crap with when I'm angry. I hardly ever admit that I'm lonely, coz I believe it's just a trick of the heart that I could overcome if I dun think about it. But then, sometimes, I just have to think, it just comes naturally. Thinking of you makes me wonder if everything I dream of is possible. I hope, but I think I'm just being naive again. I'm forever living in my own world of dreams. Even if we're together, would I be comfortable around with you? I dunno. I think I will never know.

Work was fun today. We discussed about ChuiLing's prob. No one knows wat's going on with her. But she got everyone worried. And I realised I got extra hours again. I dun care lor, tomorrow I gonna tell ChuiLing that I have something on and can only work at 7pm. Wat excuse I can give? Oh ya, I going Genting. LOL. Nah. Hmmm, I also dunno le. How!? I;m not good at lying de. Sian.

Gonna maple a while. Seeya


Okie. Just gotten back from Da Vinci code. Hmmm. Wat can I say? I expected the movie to be like that. I wanted to watch because it's a blockbuster, it's like a "must watch" you know? Well, as usual la, the movie left out some minor details like the brother and more codes to be solved, but overall, it's one of the better movies that is ripped from book so far. Yup.

We had to RUSH our dinner before our movie. Whose fault? Ahem. Actually I wasn't as pissed off as PeiYi. She was more pissed off at them coz she waited very long and that it's coz of YaoWei dotaing. I began to be pissed when I realised they are walking so ever slowly. Cannot believe them. So we had to rush our dinner coz there wasn't enough time. We were a bit late for the movie though. Tsk. Anyway, I owe all of them like so much money now. Sob. I no change to give them. Must remember to return them lor. Ezul owe me money. wahaha. 8.50 please!

I'm so in love with Canon Rock man. The piece of music is a genius.

I'm gonna kill Shaiful for wat happen back there in Cathay. Greeted Derek there too.

Hmmm, I walked home coz I no coins to take the bus. Good for me too I guess. Exercise. Ha.

Nothing much le. Going off do my stuff. Seeya


Back. From Causeway.

Tired. From all the walking.

School as usual, just that I decided not to come as early as I suppose to do. YaoWei wanted to be late as well, but I message him first, so he got to come sch and report lor. Feel a bit bad la, coz like always me the one wanna be late and sleep more. JingSi also come late today. LOL. Think coz the previous day we maple until very late. So two guys went school, both also sleep. LOL. While the two girls slept at home. Wahahah. Come to school, chat with the gang. Happy birthday to DET Melvin. lol. Hear them talk about this crazy guy who wasn't happy at Robin scolding vulgarities. lol. Read Robin's blog as well.

He's a different person from what I know from reading his blog and that day he told me some stuff happening to him and his girlfriend. I guess even the most happy person on earth always have some stuff to worry about.

Watching Da Vinci with my friends tomorrow~ I'm expecting the worse actually. Well, what to do? Just slack with my friends lor.

Met up with Metta, shop around in Causeway, bought a few tees. I'm running out of tees to wear. And I think my dressing getting worse lor. LOL. Last time still okie de, guess once I hang out with guys my dressing become bad. Haha. I dunno why. Just feel that I dun have to dress up with guy friends. Maybe I shy lor. lol.

I need to buy somemore stuff. Sad le. Running out of money soon. Sigh. I wonder if I should ask my brother for money. Sigh.

Nothing much. Metta had been talking about sch very often. Which is good. Glad she's going back to sch and having so much fun there.

I admire YaoWei for his courage le! He can actually say "What the fuck" at someone's face directly. Cracks me up. keep laughing coz it's really brave of him lor. lol. Not like that someone is someone we very close to. It's just, crap!

Maple. Seeya


Hey there. Sorry I didn't blog yesterday. Was farking tired. Seriously tired. Why? Coz the day before JINGSI ASK ME TO PARTY QUEST IN MAPLE UNTIL 6AM!! I break my record le! I shouldn't have replay maple in the first place. These days my panda eyes like getting bad to worse. Sob. Actually PQ would be fun if I wasn't so tired. LOL. Really lor. Hai. And JingSi wake me up at 7.30am. Why she and YaoWei the same de. Wake me up so early. Sob.

I come to school like a zombie.

Went to work like a zombie.

Somemore at work got so much things to do le. New stock came in. And I keep folding them. And due to my sleepiness I fold the clothes like never fold like that. Sob.

After work Kit say wanna go John Little but it was closes already. And made our way down to Cathay and buy belt. Hmmm. Going back to that building seems weird. I normally will say I wanna visit my friends, but then, I dun really bother anymore. I only visit them when I go watch movie at Cathay. Ya. I miss that place, but then, it doesn't matter anymore. Coz I know in the future, I will fight for my rights to come back as a full timer. No matter wat it takes. I must try.

Go home, settle the movie outing with Kenneth. LOL. A lot of problems coz he and Khoo knock off at 7pm. Then movie start at 7pm le. Then how? Hard to go out together with a lot of people la. I very long ago got everytime organise things de, so got experience. Haha. So ever since I work in Cathay I can't be bothered le coz know things can never be perfect. Rather leave it to people who can take it more easy then me.

Reach sch extremely late today. LOL. Coz very sleepy ma. So sleep more. My mum got kb me wake up. In the end dad at home wanna vaccum house I kena the vaccum noise awaken.

Speaking of my family yesterday had a fight with my mum. Due to money issue. Hai. I mean, I just find it not fair when I have to work and my brother dun have to when he's in poly. When he's in poly, he get to ask money from my mum and she give. Everyday have pocket money and nv complain. Then I work until so jialat no pocket money de. I tot can lessen her burden but then it seems like more jialat compared to when I dun work lor. Money are just fark. Sigh.

Maple I finally level 30 liao.

After work going down Causeway to buy tickets. See how it goes.

Realised how stupid I can be when I like someone. Relationships are just fark la.

jealous


lol. Blogging on the damn train. Scared later go home no time to blog lor. Now is like 11.50pm, just finish watching Poseidon. It's a very very nice movie, however, it's really a pity that the father had to die. Of all the people who died, think the father is the one who shouldn't die lor. Sad le. Hai. Which makes me feel like I afraid to take a cruise le. lol. Never taken a cruise in my entire life. Wahaha. Oh well.

School was the same, however, the DET students were dedating about which attachment they going to. Actually everyone was fine with each other, but there's this certain someone who they all dun wanna group with. Surely there's someone who will be grouping with her, coz it's 2 people in each company, and they like trying to save each other from her. But aiyah, in the end someone had to make the sacrifice lor. Right?

I guess it's rather sad to be outkast, who knows people are the one who mistaken her? I mean, I dun really know her myself, though I hear a lot of things about it. but is it fair to her that I judge her without knowing her properly? I doubt so. Wat if one day I'm the one being outkasted? Maybe because of a mistake I did and everyone started to condamn me? Like in Secondary 2, netball? Though till now I still think I'm not in the wrong. I mean come on, so what if I'm good with guys? They are much simplier creatures compared to girls right? I enjoy their simpliness, especially when I had enough of girls judging me. I mean, not the friends I have now, though they did judge me now and then, but then, I guess it's life that I have to learn to accept that nothing's perfect.

Though I wish that everything is perfect, nothing is. lol.

I'm happy in school today. People tell me I get happy at simple things. I guess I just want my life to be simple. Simple appreciation, simple gesture, just makes me happy. Did I mention that I saw Jess just now? Yup, she exited from Cathay office. Saw Jasper too. And oh my god, UNCLE BILAL! I miss him so much. Sigh. I miss the times when he would just comfort me when I'm crying. Those were the times.

ChuiLing owe me 15 bucks. wohohoho. My pocket now is empty le. Sigh. So from today onwards like cannot enjoy much. So fast le. It's just a few days from my pay day. But then, I need to save 500 this month. Already plan properly liao. Must save so that I would be able to successfully take my practical lessons without any financial difficulties. =D

Wanna Maple tonight, but then, dunno JingSi online ma. Can maple together ma.

Nothing much to blog already. LOL. And I'm still at AMK station. Still have like 5 more stops to go. Boo Hoo. Then still have to walk home. ARGH.

Watching Da Vinci Code with Melvin, YaoWei, Ekin, Ezul. Not sure if Kenneth wanna join. Wanna jio more people le. But they say wanna go Causeway, which is like a bit of trouble for Irddy they all if they wanna join. Hmmm. I also dunno le. See how. Hahaha. But Friday watching le. I think the DET students like a bit uncomfortable with the rest of the DMDs. Sad. I mean it's understandable. But then, wish everyone can be like one big happy family. Wahahaha.

Attachment coming. Wonder who will I be with? Wonder if it's YaoWei again? If it's him I guess I dun mind. I dun mind Ekin, Melvin, or anyone else really. But best if can be the people I'm good friends with. Better company ma. Then time wouldn't so hard to pass. 3 months le. 3 months in FYP like very fast past like that. Sad. Oh well.


Back! To blog. World is not gonna stop coz I haven't been blogging I guess.

Seems like everyone is so busy. So am I. But I hope somehow I'm never forgotten by my friends. By Sam, KJ, Angeline, Jess, Metta. Though I'm just a small fry, I just want them to know I do miss them. A lot. Ha. That day I called Metta to catch up during working hours, was freaking bored at work, so just randomly called Metta, after that KJ and Angeline. Just to chat. I mean, I hardly chat on the phone. Was working damn hard the past two weeks. I really need a break soon. Which is this week and the next and the next. haha. My well deserved break.

I didn't go sch today. And I seriously miss sch. Wanna rot in school with my friends. lol.

Need to get a lot of stuff recently too. Need to make time for shopping, but of coz, dun spend too much too. Need to save 500 bucks this month. Hard.

But I wasted 50 bucks on maple card already. haha. Changed my character's hairstyle. And bought a pet. Interesting le. But dun think I'll spend any more except to buy the water to revive my pet. Haha.

Working so hard. But then, enjoyment comes in too! Gonna go K sometime this week, and to catch Poseidon as well tomorrow. Hmmm, Jess jio me go clubbing, but I think I rather go somewhere nice and quiet to have a drink or two.

many stuff happened. Recently talked to ChuiLing about BGR. Seems like she's having prb. She like kinda asked me if I have a boyfriend. But tot it's pretty obvious that I dun have one? lol. Then I told her I have someone in mind. Doesn't matter if we dun get together. I guess wat matters is that I'm happy now. He came into my mind. I'm surprised that I didn't think of another. Wanna know who? LOL. Who knows, might be YOU right? Wahaha. K, I'm going nuts here.

Went to see the doc just now too.

I am so sian. Going sleep early. haha. Wonder if there's anything to do tomorrow.

Now I wonder, why I spend so much on maple cards. LOL. Why people are giving away money to buy things that dun really last forever. Is gaming really more important then anything else? if one day you were to choose, will one choose to game over your girlfriend? lol. Just a tot. I mean, actually, I also dunno if I would like my boyfriend to spend more time on me or games. If he spend it on games, I can hang out with my friends more often right? But then, I will definately be lonely coz he actually choose games over me. However, if he goes out with me more often, I guess I must be comfortable around him lor. If not, I think I also dun like going out with him. hate awkwardness. I would appreciate it if he do some things to make me feel not so awkward. Silence is a nono. lol. But then, I also dun want him to put pressure on me to go out with him everytime. So basically. I dunno what I want. LOL.

Why am I think so much on these nowadays. Haha. I mean, it's not like I want a boyfriend, it's just meaningless thoughts. Besides, I love people before, so naturally I'll think alot. Sometimes, it's best not to love before, so that you can continue to dream, and not afraid to love someone easily. People who love and lost before, feared, afraid the same thing happen to them. But I think nowadays society very open lor. Like all these kind of things dun matter anymore. Nowadays like so practical, money, companionship, sex, plus more money. lol. Who cares about the sentimential me?

Lol. Like I said. Just some thoughts. After all, blogging is about sharing thoughts I guess.

You know wat friendship means? Probably people who enjoy times together, think of each other, miss each other, appreciate each other, help each other, that's friendship. BGR is just different. It still amazed me how different it is. lol.

K la. I dunno what to blog liao. Seems like I'm better from bad to worse as a blogger. omg. lol. Seeya!


Oh my god. There are times like this when there's so much to blog and right now I got so little time to blog.

Forgotten wat happen in school already so I'll just start from the moment I finish work.

Get to see Samantha after 5 to 6 months. After her 20th birthday celebration. And I'm so happy to see her. I mean, I really miss her a lot. Though true, she may not be there often, but thinking back how she was there for me when shit happens to me, Metta and troop and Eve, I just appreciate the fact that she's still there alive hugging me and being as "nie" as ever. I almost wanna cry man. Yup, that's how much I miss her. But I know I'm no tat important to her la, but well, lol. I dunno why I feel this way yesterday. Took hundreds of photos with her. Ok, I'm just kidding. No one had enough phone memory yesterday to withstand 100 photos. lol. I took most of the photos with her.

We went Gothem. And no it's not batman city, it's just a casual small club that plays very nice old R&B songs. We reached like 10 plus, super early, and we expected the dance floor to be empty la. We just wanted to get drinks, and we did. The enviroment is great, there's aquariaums and the dance floor reminded me of ChinaBlack. There's this idiotic bartenter whom I cruise and swear underneath my breathe. He's like so farking attitude and think we're noobs in drinking. Might as well go and die can?

Drank 5 cups. Okie la. Wanna drink more but then they wanna club hop to MOS so no chance to drink moe. I dunno why I wanna drink more. I guess there's something inside of me just need to drink and get really drunk. I guess I just wanna cry.

But I got a different feeling about yesterday. Can you imagine I can get so high and not feel anything on the dance floor. Yes, I did not feel anything. It's kinda complicated. Something is just not right to me yesterday. And I still haven't figured out wat.

We were super high until we came les. It's freaking scary when I tot about yesterday. It's just nuts la.

Alright, I reach home at about 3am, comfirm not enough sleep, plus the fact that YaoWei woke me up at 7am instead of 8am. I am totally dead when going to sch. YaoWei also didn't come to sch, so I just slept lor. I slept using 3 chairs joined together. Damn shiok comparing to sleeping on the damn table. They should have beds for FYPJ students. Can always take a nap before resuming work. Can improve our productivity.

Slept for like a while, and when we wake up, we suddenly decided to go KTV to enjoy. Mind you, the decision was so sudden. It was like, "Hey, let's go K" and Robin and Tedo were like "Okie" Like on the spot you know! And ta da, we found ourselves at AMK K box at 12 plus. LOL. We tried calling YaoWei but he didn't on his phone. Had a bit of fun. It was my FIRST KTV with people outside of Cathay. Well, year 1 KTV session wasn't counted coz I wasn't there til de end. I get to sing most I guess. LOL. But then, it's fun with Robin and Tedo too. And Jingsi and me can sing Duets!! Oh my god! So happy!! Hope there are more times like this la.

KTV just have the suckiest MTVs avaliable. I mean, I checked and suddenly they have new english songs, and checked them out, as I feared, it was the freaking girl posing and stuff like that and they claim that is the MTV of that particular song? The people from the music industry should just sue them for making such a pornographic MTV. And since when "This Love" have sex scenes on the MTV one? It's just super lame lor. But well, we had fun laughing at the girls in the so call MTV making a fool out of themselves.

However, I'm super shag at work. Had fun with Kit as usual, talk about a lot of things and stuff like that.

Reached home adn helped a lot of things on a lot of stuff. And I kena virus again. It's like, WAT THE FARK. I JUST FAKRING REFORMATED MY COMPUTER LIKE A MONTH OR TWO AGO? I'M FREAKING SAD CAN?

Photos once more!

~Club MOS and Gothem~



Samantha. Miss her so much man. She's also my unofficial make up artist.


Yup, the poster of Batman City. No la, just a new club I went to try it out.


Yup. Our first drink of the day!


This one actually very nice but too bad her face got chopped off.

My infamous face. This photo is actually kinda creepy.


This one also actually very nice but KJ's head got chop off. I guess the camera just dun like us being happy.




Please la. I know this cup look like water but it's actually sprite vodlka can? And KJ is just disturbing le. LOL.




The effect of the photo just explains where we are. MOS toilet! Our fav phototaking place. lol.



Metta Metta where are you? LOL. This photo just crack me up. Hahahahaha.


Sitting on a swing in the retro room. Dunno what room was that called. lol. But super retro la.

~KTV~


Gtg. Sigh. Night


K. Blog.

Yesterday got freaking hell lot os things to say one le. Blogger down. Such a disappoinment. Even so, I still didn't get enough sleep. Reach home late last night. lol. Yesterday quite happening le.

In sch tio suan again. Ya I know, I kena train kena suaning by KJ that I'm so freaking used to it. lol. In fact, numb liao. I watched the videos that time the troop took in KTV. Just bring back those memories man. KJ smelling her armpits, Angeline acting cute, one video was when Jess mood swing also. LOL. Then the video where Sam say I love you for my birthday video. I seriously miss them all.

But then again, I met some of them yesterday. Metta and Angeline and Jess came down to have dinner together. Which is so nice of them ar. Even though it was originally Metta and Angeline only. Metta complain about her school, Angeline telling us how ored she is at home, and Jess is a bit quiet yesterday though. Hmmm, the group came up and fetched me, when going off for dinner I told YaoWei ma, then the way he reply Metta say he very cool le!! LOL. Freaking funny. Then I come back to class suan him lor. Hmmm, this week in school quite boring wor. Coz everyone is doing work le. No more fun for anything. Just hope that next week during my days off can go KTV or movies or just at home maple. But then, my off days are not to go to waste. I'M DETERMINED TO HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS!! SPEND QUALITY TIME!!

Ahem.

Wanna go ToaPayoh to sell my phone. Hopefully Metta's able to join me after her school or something. Make yourself free on Monday, Wednesday or Thursday hor. And hopefully go K. And find one day go Club.

k I'm just deprieved of my entertainment can?

Oh of coz, I miss my best friends too. You guys know who you are right?

Went to a sale yesterday. Saw this formal wear that I think I'm buying la. Black le. Means my formal wear that day full body is black le.

K I super high now. Going club tonight. AND I'M FREAKING HIGH. Coz Samantha is going! THE SAMANTHA!!! THE ONE AND ONLY SAMANTHA!!! WHY METTA DUN WANNA GO... sob. She's the only one now. The MOST STEADY ONE but dun wanna go. The whole troop is there but she dun wanna go. Never mind. Just photoshop her into the photos lor.

Luckily I got bring extra clothes when KJ mention might be clubbing today. Super shiok lor. BUT I LAST MIN NEVER BRING SHOES!! I dun think I wanna club in my sneakers de lor. HMMM. Wonder if I can borrow shoes from anyone later? I pray the people at BODS will bring!! ARGH!!!


D/ling an old game. Melvin intro, might as well test it out. lol. School cannot patched it, so now at home patch lor. I'm freaking tired. Not enough sleep for so long.

My mum is sweet enough to cook some mini hotdogs for me. I growing fatter le. Cannot take it sia. It's like fatter and fatter each day. My god. I think I'm under some mental pressure that made me eat so much.

K, you wanna know wat's bothering me recently? Someone I know kinda resemble YOU. And when he resemble you it just bring back painful memories that I tot I forgotten. I mean, it's like freaking 2 years. Or 3? Somewhere there. 2 to 3 farking years and thinking how you could say "coz I dun love you anymore" and that's it. It's, farking painful. Sure I've moved on but it's still farking painful. And so many times and incident make me hard to trust anyone. Even though I like someone. It's still hard to trust. Sometimes I wish I had never been in love to know how painful it is, so that I can easily learn to love. But no. You made it so hard. And but remembering it now and still cry shows how much I love you in the past. Love? which girl doesn't want to be treasured, to be loved, true I am a bit independant but I'm still a girl after all. But it's so hard. it's farking hard to trust myself anymore.

Just by liking someone I guess is enough for me. The feeling will just fade. It always had.

Always want my fairytale you know? But deep inside me, I wished, but I also know that it will never come true.

Yup, that's been disturbing me these days. Probably coz of that someone that resembles YOU.

But I think I'm okie already. As long as I dun develop feelings. A friend of mine tell me it's not about controlling urself from liking someone, is to overcome the fear and barrier you have. God, I can even cry when the guy I like, like me. I mean, it means a relationship and I'm just farking scared. And trust me. I dun think anyone know this kind of feeling.

K, enough about that. Sch was okie. These days never play bball coz we're all doing work. JS was sing, but she get to K box. MY GOD. And Robin get to go MOS on Saturday. WAT IS THIS! I also want my life back! LOL. I am so deprieved of my entertainment. YaoWei cut his hair already. prefer his long hair. Ate breakfast with Melvin and PeiYi, and accompany Ekin eat lunch, but I only eat fries ar. Today time pass quite fast. Coz I was going the texture the whole freaking day. That bloody sotong texture just dun look right. And I'm super determined to get it right before the day ends. And I made it! So proud of myself le.

And oh, got a new top today. At Bods. Got discount ma, and I love that tank top! Hmmm. And today was the first time I do closing with ShiKin, and she is super funny. I kena her illness le; laugh for no freaking reason. I was just telling her, that day Kit was rolling her head againest the wall. And I demostrate to her. And we both laugh and laugh coz the sight of it is freaking funny. Shikin couldn't roll coz her arm was big, and her head bounce off the wall when her arm touches the wall. The sight is freaking funny la, I should video tape it and put it up here man!

Didn't bring my hp out today. Sorry guys! Metta and Angeline and Janna! Couldn't reply ur sms and pick up ur calls. Didn't expect people would wanna find me ma.

Except for my mum.

Gosh, if only can dun carry a hp. of coz not, my mum will yell at me. I still remember that time, I didn't have a hp for a week. And the feeling is just great. No problems, no mum to call and nag or ask stupid questions, it's just me and my life.

They were discussing about tatooing girl's eyebrows today. They say it's freaking ugly. I think it's like a monster. lol.

Wanna maple for a while. Seeya.


HAVE I MENTION MY ROOM IS LIKE FREAKING COLD!?

God, I cannot take it man. Shouldn't ask my dad to fix until so perfect. Argh!

Anyway, had fun at work. Dunno why today got the laughter illness from ShiKin, we just laugh and laugh about nothing. Not funny also laugh. Think we sick ar. LOL. But fun lor. Maybe coz ChuiLing not there. =D Evil. Aiyah, naturally one ma. Manager not there sure a bit havoc one. Hehe. We planning watching movie together le. See when can watch lor. And oh, we also planning go clubbing together. Or maybe just sit down and drink alcoholic drinks. Like a lot of plans coming up le. lol. Aquamarine is going to end soon!! Sob!! I must find one day go watch liao. Sad le. When a Stranger Calls is out tomorrow. Wee~ And Poseidon is out on Wednesday. I'm DESPERATE to watch movies. OH MY GOD! lol

Wat else. Hmmm, I level 24 in Maple liao le. Happy. LOL. But my friend (dunno his name, met in Maple) catching up le. Sad. Haha. Maple a bit later la.

Hmmm. I saw a gay couple today. Positive gay. But then, I feel sad for them lor. I dunno why. Somehow just feel sad for them.

Anyway, today I disturb JingSi. I too bored at work. She like 3pm reply me after my break and tell me she just wake up lor. And even tell me that she yesterday went K Box. OH MY GOD. K BOX LE!! I thinking I dun care liao next week wanna go K Box le. K BOX ANYONE!? But next week really cannot lor.. school and work. Super sian. But after this week.. wahahahaha! I free!! I'm free to watch movies and K box!! I JUST CAN'T wait!! Anyway, she very good lo got entertain me sms quite a bit.

Today I super hyper. lol. Dunno why. Happy~ Thank god I'm back to normal.


I'm super super super tired. And I'm gonna be like that for the next week as well. No off day. Will I survive? I dunno le. Hopefully la.

Sorry for not blogging properly the past few days. Was really feeling down thinking about the past. Somehow things can never be forgotten and it just huants you now and then which is super scary can. It just makes me realised that it hurts so much in the past that I dun dare to open up myself again. That kind of thing.

Pretty pissed off with some people. But dun really care la.

My room is still freaking cold.

And I'm back to Maple coz my brother helped me out a little. lol. Thanks. He selling his maple account btw. So sad le, coz his account like really power. Haha.

Well, these days at work I really like working with Kit. Became extremely close to her. Which is good I guess. LOL. She's crazily funny. She made me walk all the way to PS to buy dinner and eat lor. Within 1 hour le. We rush like hell. lol. Chuiling today go back malaysia liao, so I have to cover for her next week lor. Hopefully can survive ar.

I miss school. Seems like this week no time for them like that.

So many movies to watch. HMMM. lol. Movies anyone? KTV as well? SHOPPING?

I wanna play bball too . =D

Suppose to meet YiChun today but I like not in a good mood, super tired. Legs are killing me.

now i just hope this feelings for you fade away. i'm scared to fall into the trap again..


Maybe it's the time of the month.

But I seriously need to cry. I feel like I really wanna cry. Since when I last cried really badly. Last year?

There's so many things on my mind that I dunno how to say them here. Probably coz it's an open blog. Cannot sound so emo on my private life. lol.

I need to recover


Pretty late. Sorry. But then, today like a lot of stuff to do. I just wanna faster past this week and next and so I can have my breaks for the lower end of May and enjoy myself with my friends.

Did work in school today. Though not completed yet.

Actually not much to say today. Feel a bit emo today. While waiting for Metta.

I realised I still have tears. I wonder why it hurt so much after so long. I've moved on, but then, the hurt someone is still there. Which I dunno when it wouldn't open up.

Can the farking emo just go away?

Sian. Just one of the days when I'm losing hope in everything once again.


Alright. Been a.. hmmm... okie day for me la.

Went school, nothing much. Actually, super sian. Coz really nothing to do. But I think tomorrow onwards got stuff to do liao ba. I need to brush up my stuff le, seems like I rather slack in my FYPJ, which is suprising lor, coz I hardly slack de, must be coz YaoWei influence. lol. Actually still quite a lot of stuff to do. See how everything goes tomorrow. Anyway, presentation also nothing much, a lot of bitching about the lecturers how they suck. Hmm. Opps. lol.

LOL. I rather sian of working also this month. Coz this month pay over 500, then got CPF deduction, now I dun need the deduction ma, need money urgently. Then wanna spend my time enjoying myself too ma.

Watched MI3 today. Actually, the movie was okie la. I mean, I seen better movies I think. LOL. But we got seperated le, 2 rows, also dunno why. Haha, actually can sit one whole row in front de, but heck la. I sat with Ekin. And Tom Cruise is super cute. lol. Willing to risk anything for his love one le. Really mission impossible. Wahaha. Wonder can find a guy like that in this world or not. lol.

They went dinner, actually wanna go one, but then, dun want Ekin to feel left out so I left with her head home. Bitch more about the lecturers again. lol. Reach home, realised that my mum really never buy me dinner. And I super hungry now. She bought satays but then I only eat 3 sticks coz I think my family also wanna eat lor. Haha. I hope can ren until tomorrow morning eat breakfast ba.

hmmm think I go play some game or something. See how. lol. Bye~


Okie. I not sure if I wanna blog or not. but since I'm writting a few sentences already might as well blog lor. lol. k la, I got a bit of feeling to blog la.

Well, actually a lot of stuff happened recently. But dunno where to start lor. Basically I get to make close friends with people from school. Had fun crapping and laughing and kena suan by them. As usual la, I'm always the suaning target. KJ also everytime suan me de. Now in poly also got people suan me like hell. But neverthless, it's overall fun la. I dun get angry, but I always fail to have stuff to shoot back to them. I guess that's why I so easy bully. lol. The DET students very steady one le. lol. Glad that I made friends like them in school. Sort of at last I found friends like that lor. Although YaoWei is all along "sort of there" for me. But then he also got another click ma, then I only girl like very paiseh, but DET make me feel quite comfortable lor. Robin, Irddy, Tedo, JingSi those people la. Not forgetting WinYin and Melvin who sometimes are funny beyond words. Also not forgetting Melvin from the other room, and Ekin too, who make DMD a bit normal. As for YaoWei, aiyah, he can fark off man. lol. He say I suck le! I hear liao shattered. lol. But then, everything is super fun la. Just wanna enjoy it now. Who knows in IAP and back to school it's gonna be me alone again? Hai. Kinda fear that somehow.

Anyway, today Metta's first day of school. Just relax a little, everything gonna be fine. I'm gonna be here to help you. After all, you went into DMD partly coz I'm able to help you out right? Just try and enjoy the first month, making friends is important. Dun like me from year 1 to year 2 hardly have any friends in school de. Rather sad ar.

Hmmm, I maple until level 22 liao. Hmmm, not bad I guess, but no time to play. Since in school also cannot start the game de. I feel like bringing my modem to school just to play maple. LOL. Well, thanks to my brother also la, he helped me quite a bit. Made friends in maple too. All xiao didis. lol. But what can I expect right? I mean, it's MAPLE. Suppose to be a kids game. lol.

These few days sure got problems at work due to money and stuff. Somemore this month I feel like spending more days in school with my friends.

Been having funny dreams lately. Really funny. One was I got married to someone whom I dun remember. Another was Ekin and Irddy in my dreams. Dunno why. But these days I sleep with a smile on my face. It always happens when... nvm. lol.

Anyway, tomorrow got presentation. Super sian. Formal Presentation somemore. Hai. But maybe going out with the peeps. See how lor.

It's been a week plus since I last saw the troop. Oh my god. Seems like they dun miss me at all also lor. Angeline!! Club!! Jess just disappeared. KJ, like so busy. Metta is the only one I'm keeping contact with lo. lol.

i'm so lonely, on my own...~~

Name's Wendy (aka wencas)
Birthday falls on the 3rd April
I'm an Aries. Exact. Same. Personality.
Attached happily to Calvin Shing Jia Yong.
Well, that's all you need to know, right?



craves :
Ipod Nano ?
A red Nintendo DS Lite sweeetttt ;)
A Flat Screen TV
TV Cable
Constant Traveling with my one and only ^^
More shoes!
Drama Shows
Comics
ODM Watch got a puma one =D
A perfect wallet braun buffel wakakaka
Brazailian wax ouch
W890i Sony Ericsson
More clothes ^^










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